That Night
by Faithful_14
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy&Co.
B and I are celebrating our one year anniversary tonight. I can't help but smile as I think about it. To think that I've been with the love of my life for a whole year. And every single day has been heaven. Right now I'm waiting for Buffy to come out of the bathroom so we can go have dinner. We're going back to the restaurant where we had our first date. It's not classy or anything, but we enjoy it.
Finally I hear the bathroom door open and B steps out. She's gorgeous, and I can't help but stare. "Faith?" she asks. I'm roused from my daze and I stand up and walk over to her. She smiles at me. "You're beautiful," I say quietly and kiss her soundly. When we break apart she links arms with me. "So are you...Now let's get going," she kisses me lightly before we leave the house.
When we get to the restaurant we're seated at a cozy table for two. After we order she slips her hand into mine. "I've never had an anniversary with anyone before. I was never with anyone long enough. But I like this, and we're gonna have many more just like it," she tells me with a smile on her face. I nod my head and smile back.
I feel truly blessed just to be loved by Buffy. I never thought I'd be so lucky as to be loved by anyone. But me and B are gonna make it, we're gonna overcome all odds and be with each other forever. I'm still awed by her beauty, her tenderness. She means the world to me. And I make sure I tell her everyday.
We finally get our food and we chat about this or that. Slaying never comes into the conversation. And when we're finished I pay and we head back to the car. I open the car door for her and she smiles brightly at me. I smile back and get in the driver's seat. "So are we going home?" she asks. "Um...we could go to the video store and rent something," I suggest. "Okay," she agrees.
So I start the car and head off in the direction of the video store. We cross a bridge that was built over a big gorge with a river running through it. It's where we shared our first kiss. I still remember that night like it was yesterday...
I try to keep my attention on the road. We drive a little further and then I see it. A car is stalled in the road. I can't stop in time so I swerve to the left, narrowly avoiding the car. But now I'm in the wrong lane, and a big SUV is barreling down on us. Unable to stop he hits us full force. I know it's over so I shut my eyes, but I'll never forget the sound of screeching tires and breaking glass. But the last thing I hear is my lover's painful scream.
When I wake up the rain is coming down hard. But I have no idea how long I've been out for. I feel something warm running down my forehead but I ignore it. The car is a wreck and it's all smashed in from what I can tell. But somehow I find Buffy, so I lift her head and pull her into my arms. I feel for a pulse but it's faint and she's still unconscious.
"B...Buffy...please wake up..." I plead. She stirs a little and coughs up some blood. I realize I'm crying now and she looks up at me. "I can't feel anything, Faith. Hold me," she begs. "I am," I reply sadly. She watches me with pain laden eyes but the undying love in them is unmistakable. "I love you," I say and lean down and press my lips to hers one last time before she dies.
I hear sirens now and the paramedics pull up soon after. They take her away from me and I yell, "No! Buffy! Come back!" Then the world goes black.
When I wake up I'm disoriented and I can't remember anything. I look around and I realize I'm in the hospital. But I don't see Buffy anywhere. A nurse walks in and I ask what happened. "Miss, you've just been through surgery," she tells me. But I don't care, all I want to know is where my Buffy is. "What happened?! Where's my girlfriend?!" I cry. She looks at me sadly, "You were in a car accident. I'm sorry miss but your girlfriend is dead." Those words echo in my mind as everything from the previous night comes back to me.
I can't breath, it feels like someone ripped my heart out. I lost Buffy, my heart, my soul, my life. And I killed her, I killed Buffy. Right now I have nothing but pure hatred for myself...
The gang came and told me it wasn't my fault, it was an accident. I don't believe it, they're all crying. A week later I'm discharged. We have a funeral for her a day after.
While I stand there, next to her coffin, in the middle of the graveyard while many other mourn her death I can only cry. Part way through the service I totally break down and Giles has to hold me up.
That night Angel and the rest of the LA crew come. And it was decided that Soul boy was gonna stay so he could watch over me. Until everything was under control. But it never would be, I'd never forgive myself.
Weeks went by, and those turned into months. But still I sat in a chair, eating only when food was brought to me, and stared at a picture of me and B that I kept in my wallet. After a while Angel had to leave so now it was up to Giles to take care of me. I never talk to anyone, I've never talked since that night.
I don't understand why she was taken away from me. I don't understand why I walked away from the accident when I didn't deserve it. I don't deserve to live anymore. I took away the most precious gift the world had. They had Buffy, their slayer. Buffy was my reason to live, now there is no point.
So while Giles is out I take his car. I drive back to the site of the accident; tears stream down my face. I come to the bridge and I park the car on it. I get out and numbly look down into the water far below. "Buffy," is my last word before I jump.