Useless Thoughts
by Samantha
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Joss owns them, Seether owns lyrics to Broken.
Notes: Just a little bitty thing from Faith's point of veiw. I am sad, so u get a sad little thing.
Feedback: Sure.
::I wanted you to know That I love the way you laugh::
Your eyes are what get me.
Sometimes we're talking, and I am holding up my end of the conversation....at least I think I am....and all I am thinking is how fucking beautiful they are. How lost I could be in them.
It's like nothing matters when I am with you. Nothing matters except your next smile, tear, laugh, anything, any little piece of you I can grab onto and file away, something little to remember you by. Something to cuddle up with at night.
I know you know I feel like this. And I know you wish sometimes that you could love me back. Too bad we both know you can't, too bad so many things are always in the way.
God the way you smile sometimes.
It hurts almost to look at it, to be this close and know it's never going to be mine. I watch you laugh and all I can think is how beautiful you are.
You say you love how affectionate he is, that he can't keep his hands off you. My hands are only off you because you won't allow them there. I mean sure for a brief brush, a short hug it's fine. Anymore than that and you start pulling away.
I can't really get mad, I know you only do it because you don't want me to get the wrong idea. Don't want me to start thinking you can give me what I want. I don't blame you, it's true, I would think that.
It's something about your hair.
The way it feels when I play with it. How it smells when you're tired of holding back and you rest your head on my shoulder. When I close my eyes I can still feel you there.
You told me once that you wished you could love me. You were drunk, probably don't remember, but I am sure you meant it. You said you wished you could love me, because you knew I would be perfectly happy with you.
I would be. When I am with you I can forget everything, forget any problems, all I see is you, all I can think is that I love you.
If I was with you, I think I'd be happy.