Please Remember
by BrokenAngelEtte
Rating: R

Disclaimers: Faith is, as is Buffy, sadly owned by Evil Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. If he doesn't want them anymore, I'll be more than happy to take them!!! Oh and "Please Remember" is a song by Leann Rimes, she owns all rights to it.

Faith sighed softly and stared after the slowly receding figure, so confidantly striding away with a stake in hand, leaning against the hard rock wall of the alley, arms wrapped tightly around herself to shield her own self from..

>From what?< Faith wondered, >The cold? No.. there was just a gentle breeze. From the night? Hah.. I learned at an early age to never be scared of what I couldn't see, why bother? Kill it, move on with your life. Fuck it.. must just be a way to comfort myself. A way to make up for the burn I feel any time I think of her or hear her name... And she's ALWAYS on my mind. I mean.. damn B, couldn't you just let me alone for a little while?<

	**Time, sometimes the time just slips away
	And you're left with yesterday 
	Left with the memories 
	I, I'll always think of you and smile 
	And be happy for the time 
	I had you with me 
	Though we go our seperate ways 
	I won't forget so don't forget 
	The memories we made**

>No.. I guess not. I mean, I thought I had it figured, y'know? All I had to do was kill that bastard Kakistos, and then kick any vampire ass that I came into range with. Plan was going five by five, but... you entered the picture. That night at the Bronze.<

	**Please remember, please remember 
	I was there for you 
	And you were there for me
	Please remember, our time together 
	The time was yours and mine 
	While we were wild and free 
	Please remember, please remember me** 

>I had been luring that dumbfuck in with my wild girl act and he actually thought he'd have me. Had no idea you would follow me out... The look in your eyes when you were following.. your whole aura screamed "Here I come innocent bystander, let me help you." Help.. me? Nah.. who would do that, right? Besides. I had myself, that's all I needed.. back then. I had never really thought about it... I figured, hey, I'm the Slayer, I kick ass and get gone. But despite (despite? G-man would be proud) all of that you would have knelt down by me and comforted me, checked if I was okay, I know it. Even that look you shot me right before you realized I didn't need your help...

I had no chance. All my walls came crumbling down... all that I'd worked so hard to put up that had been effective in pushing any and everyone away so that I wouldn't get hurt again... gone with one small look into the tender hazel green, time stood still while emotions and love passed from my own plain brown eyes into the eyes of the girl I love.<

	**Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say 
	And it's sad to walk away 
	With just the memories 
	Who's to know what might have been 
	We'll leave behind a life and time 
	I'll never know again**

>That's right.. love. I've stopped denying it as just the whole hungry/horny deal... but God B... did you have to give me that look? I never deserved anything you gave me.. reaching out to me when I had no right to it. I didn't respond the way I wanted to... you brushed my simple flirting aside as just that... but it was more, so much more. Broodboy didn't exactly help the situation...<

	**Please remember, please remember 
	I was there for you 
	And you were there for me
	And remember, please remember me**

>I was right anyway... you made all that talk of being my friend, of being there for me, but where were you B? Where were you while I sat in my piss poor motel, while you and the Scoobz all had your little meetings? Where were you B, when my world came crashing down, when I tried so hard to be with you, I even made friends with your mom at Christmas... I thought it'd be just us, y'know? But.. even a little love was too much to ask... I know where you were. Too bad I don't have any fangs, huh? Cuz now I'm brooding a whole fuckin' lot...<

	**Please remember, please remember 
	I was there for you 
	And you were there for me**

>But then again... you have no idea how much you meant to me when you let yourself loose for a little, let yourself see the world through my eyes, I thought I had no chance. But you came with me anyway, dancing like I always knew you could, letting that side of you out that I knew was in there somewhere... It was wrong. You shouldn't have to be like me. And the whole entire time I was just thinking how perfect it was, then I had to go and fuck up as usual. That's me, huh? I was scared, just as scared as you were! But... I couldn't let you see that.. didn't think that....< Faith sighed. >..It's too late for any of that now. But B, now I realize... trying to turn you into me was the worst possible thing I could have done. Ruining the perfect person you are... So although it was like heaven... it wasn't bliss, because in my heart I knew I would hate myself even more if you were ruined. Like me.<

	**Please remember, our time together 
	The time was yours and mine 
	While we were wild and free 
	Please remember, please remember me**

Faith stared out into the night where Buffy just was and sighed again, only softer, then let go of herself and took out a small knife, with FAITH inscripted on it in platinum, which she'd 'borrowed' from some exotic jewelry/weaponry shop. >B... it's too late for us... even though I'll be always hopeful.. always waiting, y'know?? Faithful, heh.. But, don't forget me... please, please don't forget me.. I love you beyond words, and I just hope that you're happy with Cornfed...<

	**And how we laugh and how we smile 
	And how this heart was yours and mine 
	And how a dream was out of reach 
	I stood by you, you stood by me**

Faith snapped the blade open with her skilled fingers on one hand, and pushed back her dark denim sleeve on the other hand, turning her arm over so her wrist was exposed. Faith swallowed back the growing lump in her tight throat, then slowly made tiny incisions, until there was a fine raised red line from the light scratches, which read a simple but beautiful 'B', with thin, delicate lines surrounding the heart with a stake that surrounded the B.

	**We took each day and made it shine 
	We wrote our names across the sky 
	We ride so fast, we ride so free 
	And I had you, and you had me**

>God B.. I hope you understand how much you mean to me after this... I don't want to cause you any more worry or grief or pain... I just want you to be happy.<

Faith then quickly switched the blade into her other hand and painlessly slit the untouched wrist, feeling nothing but the sadness and childish faith that had always been a part of her. She closed her eyes, murmuring barely audible I love you Buffy's, and switched back, almost dropping the blade, and leaned against the wall, dragging her body to the floor so she was being supported by the wall and braced the beautifully carved wrist tightly, then slammed the blade through it right below the B, with all of her slowly weakening strength, driving her hand down onto the ground. Faith barely flinched, just continued murmering Buffy softly, barely noticing the faint, and steadily growing trickle of blood coming from each cut... >Buffy.. Please Remember.<

Faith gave her last concious sigh, then let her head drop and let go of the blade she had clutched so tightly, slowly slipping into darkness..

	**Please remember, Please remember**

...continued in Too Late..??...