Falling Into Oblivion
by Caroline
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own the character, Faith, she belongs solely to
Joss Whedon and his company. The lyrics/rhmyes, "Into the Void", were
created by me/belong to me and are no one elses'. Please do not take
or use them in any other fanfic.
Warning: Touches upon thoughts of suicide.
Standin' atop the building Starin' down at the people mingling Wonderin' how anyone can go through With a decision so tough Knowin' the fall'll be rough Yet knowin' they've had enough That darkness that tempts us all Throughout our lives whenever we're down Drowin' in our sorrow Sinkin' more into depression Stepin' closer to a decision That'll become their last mission It calls to us all Waiting for us to fall We stand so tall Like the World Trade But even the strong fade Showin' what we're made of No matter who we are No matter how far We keep apart From these thoughts We've fought so hard Before you step off that ledge Standin' on the edge Between life and death Think of those you'll be hurtin' Leavin' behind to go through your pain It seems as if the world's on your shoulders Weighin' upon you as if it were boulders You've already lost someone You didn't see it comin' Wonderin' why "the Big One" was taken Sinkin' farther into that void Losin' your hold Onto your place in the world You've known people who've attempted to take their own Thinkin' they've lost all they've known Who have fallen from grace To their own sense of disgrace Now you can't stand to see that face Starin' back at you Lookin' down at you You've heard the stories of survivors Never thinkin' you'd take that endevour Thought you'd be goin' to Harvard Instead you're standin' in the cold Part of you wishing someone had seen through that façade This is the choice you've made Not even fate can decide Whether you'll live or die You take one step closer Towards the plunge Your head hung low At the way you'll go
Staring down at the words, she can't stop the pain that tightens more around her heart. With tremblings hands, the paper falls to the ground as her body begins to rack with sobs. Sitting down on her bunk, she raises her head heavenwards...as if asking The Powers why she was put on this earth. But she recieves no answer, she never does and she wonders if she'll be able to make that trip down the rocky road of redemption. For now, all she can do is double over and let the tears stream down her cheeks as she attempts to find the answer to her own question.