A Letter To Buffy
by Holliday
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: It had to be you.......
Author's Notes: Read Me...
B,
It's been awhile. I guess I coulda call. Don't know really if you'da answered. Sometimes I wonder if maybe I shoulda kissed you. I know you know, I don't know what I know, just that being in here, has changed how I want to be.
What happened between us, was I mean when I asked you out, I wanted it to be a real date. Probably not what you wanted to hear from me, but I was young and I thought I needed to impress you.
I mean all I heard were stories about of the great Buffy Summers, but the night we met outside the Bronze, I felt something I never experienced before.
I've never met another Slayer before so I don't know know if there is a connection between us, but I know since we became enemies I have been in pain.
I'm back in my cell now and I've been in solitary for awhile. I some Bertha's who wanted to be hard-core. I didn't kill them just let them beat me, eventually. I know this doesn't make up for Finch and what happened. I don't know if anything will. I didn't know how to handle killing a person.
Demons, Vamps and other things just dissappear. A body doesn't it made being a champion for good, not a fairy-tale anymore. With everything that has happened I still feel something maybe it's one- sided but B, some part of you has to feel something more for me than just rage.
We've been closer than anyone can ever be. You've been in my skin inside me B- Buffy no one has ever been next to me.
I did take advantage of your body and I'm sorry, but I had to know what you felt like.
Faith