Upon Waking
by Holliday
Rating: R

Disclaimer: Passion, Desire, Obssesion, Hunger.
Author's Notes: Not fuffy.

Inside my head there is a brain just like yours. Inside my chest there is a heart just like yours, it beats just as yours does. Yet something is different inside me. Yes something very unlike the rest of them. My body is flesh, it's soft and pliable just like yours. It holds beads of sweat just like yours. It's slick when wet and salty when aroused. Yes just like yours.

But this you already know... What you don't know is that I am not like you. I am not like the others who've befriended you and loved you, who worship you in their own sense of morality.

No not I... The Eternal darkness lives here... I have thoughts of things of blood dreams and carnal screams. Of you lying beneath me begging to hurt you just a little so you can dig into me. Of your tongue inside my mouth as I kiss you passionately taking your breathe inside my lungs.

How I need to feel myself against your body the smell of your skin filling my senses, as the taste of your flesh calms the untamed hunger inside. I can see you... Lying on a bed, on your stomache your back exposed to me... I've seen this before and yet I know what I will do and yet I always change something...

You don't move when I make my way on the bed, motionless like prey and I am tense, I know there are rules to this yet I know I'm in control and I have you now. I stradle your waist and I can feel you breathing the tips of my fingers slide down the contours of your back and I bite back the moan that is spilling to the surface. Laying atop you, I taste your skin, I've pushed your hair aside as I am next to your neck I breathe in your scent and am high on you.

Lowering my my lips I place one kiss there as I return to your back. I want to undress you, yet somehow the sex isn't what I am after tonight. You turn your head to look at me and our eyes lock. A meeting of dominace and something else. I see the shyness hidden behide the false bravado I've come to adore and somewhat treasure, and now I am really in a bind.

You don't speak just roll over and I wish to tell you to return but a downward glance from you and a shy smile stalls my lips and I move off of you to lie next to you. We are close to touching yet no words are spoken as we gaze inot each others souls.

Something premordial flowing between us. It's been building for a long time I reach out with a shy hand and begun to unbutton your pants when they are undone I help you remove them. I leave you with your shirt. As my gaze travels towards your legs, reaching out a finger I brush it against the warm skin and I shudder internally at how good it feels to touch you so softly.

We lay semi-clothed just touching and staring for the longest time, each knowing where to go without changing the mood from subtle caresses. It is a ritual we've come to perfect between, bringing us closer in a sense of understanding and respect for one another. Eventually our caresses will escalate to love making, yet for now this is where we are.

...continued in Upon Waking (Inside You)...