Untitled
by In-transition
Rating: R

Disclaimer: I own nothing here. I'm not that lucky.
Author's Notes: This is set after Enemies, later that night. I just kinda threw this together tonight. I felt like writing a fic and I just started typing and this came out. I’ll continue it if anyone thinks it’ll be any good. Oh and there will probably be grammar mistakes because no matter how many times I look my writing over I still seem to make mistakes.
Feedback: It’s what I live for.

Faith didn't know where she was going. She just kept walking as fast as she could. When she finally reached the house on Revello Dr., she became very nervous. She didn't know why she was there or what she was going to do. Her subconscious led her here, and now she was kicking her subconscious. She stared up at the house with shivers running down her spine. She reaches the porch and walks up one step before turning back around and losing her confidence. She is about a step away from the house when the front door swings open. Faith hears the door open and feels a familiar tingle in her gut that tells her who is there before she even turns around. Faith's first instinct is to run as fast as she could to avoid this moment. But instead she decides to suck it up and do what she knew in her heart she came here to do. Something that she's never done in her whole life, explain herself. Faith's heart starts to beat extremely fast as she slowly turns around to face the one person that can make her feel this nervous and afraid. Buffy Summers.

Buffy had no idea what Faith would be doing at her house after what happened earlier that night. As Buffy was in her house thinking painfully on the events that took place she heard hard footsteps outside and sensed the other slayer was there. At first she thought it was just her imagination because she couldn't understand why Faith would be outside her house. But when she heard the footsteps approach her house and tentatively walk up a step she knew it was Faith. Buffy could feel it deep inside. As she swung open her front door and seen Faith standing a few feet away, she froze in place. She was not expecting a visit from the other slayer. However, Buffy did not stay frozen for long. When Faith turned around to look at her all her emotions toward the other girl came rushing to her like a tidal wave. Buffy felt anger more than any other emotion toward Faith and it showed by the look she was throwing the other slayer. Faith opens her mouth to speak but no words come out when Buffy starts to walk angrily down her steps with her arms folded.

"What the hell are you doing here Faith?" Buffy asks as she stops walking toward the other girl to keep her distance.

Faith sighs and tries to find the right words. "I'm leaving." Buffy now looks even more angry. Those weren't the right words, Faith thinks to herself.

"Why Faith? You decided you damaged enough in this town and now it's time to damage another town and more people's lives?" Buffy asks.

"Fuck you Buffy. I just came here to tell you I was leaving and you don't have to worry about me getting in your way anymore." Faith starts to turn around.

"No Faith! You don't just get to leave. I can't just forget everything you did to me. We were friends and you betrayed me." Buffy says trying not to sound hurt.

"I get to do whatever I want. And don't make me laugh, we were never friends." Faith says crossing her arms mirroring Buffy's stance.

"Here we go. Boo hoo Faith. I did try to be your friend and you never let me in."

"Whatever, I'm not here to talk about the past, what's done is done." Faith says feeling defeated.

"Then why are you here Faith? To finally put the nail in the coffin? Could there possibly be one more thing you can do to hurt me before you leave?" Buffy asks with her voice rising in anger.

Faith turns around but doesn't walk away. She hangs her head looking for the courage to speak.

"I never meant to hurt you." Faith starts to speak loud enough for Buffy to hear but low enough that a normal person couldn't. "Things got out of hand. I didn't know what I was doing. I was lost, confused, scared. After Finch, I felt more alone than ever. And don't tell me things didn't change." Faith starts to turn back around but not fully. She doesn't want to meet Buffy's gaze. "Everything changed from the way you acted around me down to the way you looked at me. I couldn't deal. I didn't plan any of this. I played the villain because that's how everyone looked at me anyway. It all happened so fast for me to stop it. I'm just starting to realize what I have become, and I don't like it. I can't stay here anymore. I know you don't want to hear me apologize --" Faith is cut off by Buffy.

"Don't even dare! Don't even dare try to apologize. I don't think I could ever forgive you, no matter what excuses you give. I tried so hard to help you. I wanted you to trust me more than anything. But you couldn't do that. Instead you trust the bad guy. You say you never meant to hurt me? Then what was tonight Faith? What were you trying to do tonight?" Buffy asks angrily.

"For the past few hours I sat in my room and thought about everything that has went down. I mean really thought about it. And I came to the conclusion that I let the darkness swallow me whole. I feel so dirty." Faith says as her voice starts to crack slightly. "I killed a man, Buffy. That will never go away. You don't understand how scary that is for me. I couldn't deal and that’s why I did what I did. Everything got out of control. It was like I could see myself doing these things and I wanted to stop, but I couldn't. I dug myself so deep I don't think there’s a way to climb out of this one. I don't think there’s a way to make things right." Faith finishes and swallows the lump that has formed in her throat.

"And what do you plain on gaining from leaving Faith? Running away from what you did will never make it better."

"You think there is a way to make things better?" Faith asks a little confused.

"You could start by helping me beat the mayor." Buffy notices Faith's expression turn from confused to sad. "Listen, maybe you thought he was there for you Faith, but really he was just using you. He needed someone to get to me. You were the perfect candidate. If you can help me defeat him, I could try to help you make things right."

"You mean you can try to forgive me?" Faith asks hopefully.

"The mayor's a start. We'll see where it goes from there." Buffy replies.

"Maybe you’re the crazy one. I didn't come here tonight for forgiveness Buffy. I could never ask that from you after what I did. I came here because I had to see you. To say goodbye. After all I did to you, you’re still willing to give me a chance. I could be out of your life forever. Just say the word Buffy."

"Leaving would be the easy way out. And I thought I told you I never give up on my friends." Buffy says with the slightest and shortest smile that if Faith blinked she would have missed it.

"I hope you know what you're doing. I mean what is Angel going to say. Your friends --" Faith is cut of again by Buffy.

"I'll worry about that when it comes up. But for now I need sleep and I know we just had our little heart to heart but I'm not about to trust you to go back to that apartment, so I guess you're staying here for the night." Buffy says as she turns to walk back toward the house.

"You mean in your house? With you?" Faith asks with her heart racing.

"Yes, in my house with me. I won't feel better unless I have an eye on you. You might not like it but you’re the one that wants to make things right--" This time Buffy is the one being cut off.

"I'll do whatever you want me to Buffy." Faith sighs, "Thank you."

Buffy looks at Faith and sees sincerity and that makes her feel better.

...to be continued...