Waiting
by Jason Michael Edwards
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Slayers, Watchers and all of the myriad characters we
love and hate from 'Buffy the Vampire Slayer' and 'Angel' the series
belong to Joss Whedon and company. I borrow his toys without the
intent of harming them (any more than he does) or making any money in
the course of playing with them.
Spoilers: Post-Chosen.
Feedback: Please let me know what you think, good or bad.
If she had ever said the words to me, I would have laughed it off. I would have been sure she was joking. She likes to tease me, get me flustered. But she wrote it down. Her handwriting isn't like mine. Mine is very girly, pretty, cute. Hers is clean, sharp, not sloppy like I first imagined it would be. I can't read it right now, though. My vision is blurry, and I had to move it anyway, to keep it from getting wet. I don't want it to get wet.
Faith sent me a letter. I was excited about it. We're friends again. I've been writing her letters every week or so. Normally she calls me a day or two after she gets one. I always ask her to come to Cleveland. She always says she'll try to come visit, but that she's not ready to join us full-time. She said no again at the beginning of her letter, but at the end she said she was coming, and that she would stay if I wanted her to. So now I'm waiting.
She said she could go back to Sunnydale, she called it Sunny- hell, if I wanted her to. Why would I want that? I miss having her with me. Everything has been great between us since we left Sunnydale. We joked a little about trying to find regular jobs, live like normal women. If I could do that, I would have when Kendra showed up, or when Faith made her first appearance at the Bronze. All of the girls being activated as Slayers, that doesn't mean we aren't anymore. It just means we can do more, in more places.
We're building a new organization. Watchers and Slayers will be working together from now on. We're based out of Cleveland for now, to watch over the Hellmouth here. Faith and the girls we had with us in Sunnydale have been out looking for other new Slayers. Giles, Willow, Xander, Robin, even Dawn and Andrew, have been working on building the new Watcher's Council.
She told me she loves me.
I wonder if she knows that I love her too? I couldn't take the initiative. I couldn't risk her thinking I was just horny. I couldn't risk her laughing at me. I guess she was afraid too. But she found the courage. She's always been braver than me.
The gang is worried about me. I haven't told them Faith is coming home, yet. They keep asking me what's wrong, why am I crying. I wonder if I should change my clothes. I should be wearing something nice when Faith gets here. I want to look pretty for her. Now that she's told me that she loves me, I know we will be together forever.
I wonder what Lynn is like. Faith didn't say much about her. They should be here soon. I think Willow just read Faith's letter. She's crying now. She must miss Faith, too. She's trying to hug me, but I'm having a hard time moving. I feel so cold. Willow must have said something. Everyone is starting to cry, now. All for my Faith.
I should get up. I love Faith. I want to be at the window when she gets here.
Waiting.