Dead Rose
by Lia
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: In my constant times of inactivity I just play with the
lifes of the characters of BTVS I do not own them...
Author's Note: This is just a short fic that develops itself after
Buffy and Faith become girlfriends. It would have been very cool to
state all the previous story before this, but it was just a short idea
I had and I wanted to write... So I just leave it like that. I hope
you like, and if not well then flame me. It's the first story after a
very long recess. I am really counting on posting fics more often.
The window's open, my hair is messy, my face is still wet, my heart is broken, and you're not there. You're not anywhere, because the window's open... just like you left it when you left, yesterday.
It's raining out there. I wonder if I should go out, it's a gray day, and gray days just hurt me too much; they're your favorite kind of days. Then tell me? How would I dare to go out and walk under these black clouds without you? Do you want me to pretend? Do you want me to forget? How could I? How did you do it? Did you really do it? or it was just another lie and you never forgot everything that went on?
Where are you now? Why is your leather jacket still lying here by my side? Are you sure you're never coming back? Aren't you gonna miss me? Why is it so cold? Is it really cold... or is it just my heart aching for you?
*A slow knock on the door*
I'll put it on today, I'll put your jacket on from today until the very day when I see your face again. I don't care if that day is too far away and we are too different from who we are now, I'll still wear it. And I'll carry this picture of you with me too.
*A louder knock*
I CAN'T... I JUST CAN'T. I'm too weak. I can't do this kind of thing, I can't just let you go, take me with you.. I'll miss you too mu..
*The door opens* (Dawn, enters the room and sits on the bed)
-Buffy, who are you talking to?
-Nobody
-But you were talking, I was listenning. Are you crying?
-Not anymore, I have no more tears.
-You don't look good, you should rest. Have you slept?
-Listen, this is...
*Dawn interrupts her* - Is Faith around? Did she forget her jacket?
-No, I don't know... I don't care... She probably left it here as a gift to me.
-Oh! she bought another one? How cool! what colo...
*Buffy shouts tired* -ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT?
-Huh? *Dawn frowns surprised and somewhat mad*
-Listen, I don't wanna treat you bad. She's not here, she won't come back. She... she broke up with me.
*Dawn, uncomfortable, hessitates* -I.. I... I... I'm sorry... why?
*Buffy lowers her head and two tears slide down her cheek* -She never told me, I don't even know, she just said she'd go away...
-Do you really believe her? you know she uses to joke like that.
-This time it was different. I saw it in her eyes.
-But I dont think tha..
*Buffy rolls her eyes* -Listen, I have to process this. I need to be alone.. I'm sorry.
*She puts on Faith's jacket, combs her hair a little, and leaves dawn sitting on the beds room*
I'm wet, the rain drops hit my head, it hearts... I wonder if it hurts because of them or because of the pain. I know it's senseless, but I'm looking for you. I know I'll find you, even though a sour flavor in the mouth and a weird feeling in the whelm tell me that something has happened.
I'm starting to think you were cheating on me. Was it a girl? was it a boy? What did they give you that it was better than what I gave to you? Why did you leave me the jacket? Did you want to torture me? Did you just forget it?... Was it just a sign? Do you...
*She finds something in the right pocket*
A dead rose? Are you saying everything died between you and me? *she cries* No, wait... Now... Now I understand... You... you... you didn't go away... You killed yourself, and left me here aching and suffering all your pain.
*Buffy falls on her knees to the pavement, swallows hard, crumbles to the wall, closes her eyes, cries... dies on the inside*