I Think I Love You More Than You Love Me
by Liam Lehane
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: These BtVS characters are property of Joss Whedon and
Mutant Enemy.
Feedback: This is my first fic in English, so yes I really appreciate the feedback, you know because my English and all that....oh, the story begins with Faithīs pov and..well this is just a prologue...
PROLOGUE
Faith pov:
Itīs been awhile since I left Sunnydale, two years actually. So, Wes took me, send me to England and when the little gang need me they call me, well actually was Giles who thought I could be needed...yeah right as if B want me near her or any of her friends...anyway, Iīm here so I guess I have to do it. Face the Love of my live...yeah, the love of my live, I figure it out after two years.
-Are you ok?- I looked at Giles and try to smille at him, but I canīt.
-No, Iīm nervous. I...you think they..well- I hate when I started babbling -I mean after what happen with Xander, and Finch...I.-
-Itīs ok Faith. Look theyīre not upset with you.-
-Actually, they donīt know Iīm coming- I remind him, he take off his glasses, so typical!!!
-Yeah well, I think is..mmm...so you sign the book?- yeah G-Man change the subject. I look down where my book is resting in my lap, a little smile cross my face.
Yeah, Iīve been writing, I published my first novel six months ago, and for what Giles is telling me B loves my book obviously I didnīt published by my name, I did it by my father's name: Ephram Lehane. so no big, she doesnīt know I wrote that book, even if she doesnīt recognized the story, our story since the first day I met her.
-Yeah I did it.-
-Under your name right?-
-No, and by the way I donīt want her ...you know, knowing I wrote this ok?-
-I can undertand- he says giving me this weird look, like he knows something. Oh God.
-You...you read the book?- I asked him, he give a little smille and nod and I gulp.
-So what..what do you think?- I try very hard to sound casual but...
-Well I didnīt know that you are so great writing...and that you felt in that way for..-
-Yeah, yeah, so..well...-
-Iīm not saying anything.-
-Good. Thanks.-
Finally we're in the airport, Giles put his hand in my shoulder and smile at me, I smile back and start pacing the door in front of us are all the gang, everybody's shocked.
-FAITH!!!YOU ARE BACK!!!- says Dawn hugging me tight, I hugged her back surprise for her reaction, and I look at the gang, and she is looking at me with that perfect smile of hers.
Buffy pov
Faith is back, she is really here!!!! oh, god...I missed that tingling sensation she always send over my body just for being here. After what happened with Angel and Riley, after all this time when I tried to forget her, she is back and she is still the most beautiful think I've ever seen before. She looks relax and she is telling the gang what happen with her after Wes took her to England, she has the ability of mesmerize....me with her talk, but after a while I'm getting this strange sensation in my stomach when she talk very excited about a girl she knows in the coven.
-Yeah Jesse was there the six first months when I was lock in that room...she was amazing and very... cute, you know...like she was there for me.-
-Yeah, I know, I can imagine how "cute" was she with you Faith....-
-Wow ,Buffy?- I look over Dawn and see that everybody is looking at me as if I said ...oh god!!!
-I..I...-
-I donīt think that was nice from you Buffy- said Giles with a frown, I just blushed furiosly and look down I can felt her look on me.
-Is ok Giles- but is not ok, I can heard it in her voice that she is hurt but my commentary, but it wasnīt intentional I thought I said that in my mind I didn't I mean I never....I sound as if I was jealous!!!!!! and I am not!!! right?
After that awkward moment we arrived to my house, and Faith is still talking about that Jesse.
...Without pov...
-Faith Honey!!!- Joyce hugged Faith very hard, Faith was surprise but return the hug -I'm glad you're back.-
-Wow, thanks Mrs S.-
-Now, c'mon in the dinner is ready you can put your things here and later we put it in the room.-
-Room? No Mrs S, is ok I think I can stay in Giles's house until tomorrow so...-
-No way- said the woman smiling at the brunette -I talk with Mr Giles before you came here and we decided you can stay here.-
-Oh, yeah but...-
-Are you two discuss that all night long?- asked Buffy upset -because I'm starving and I can said that Xander and the others are the same....-
-Wow B hungry much??- said Faith uncomfortable for the behavior of her fellow slayer -here for you to stop being grumpy....-
Faith give Buffy the gift she bring for her, Buffy just took the gift quite surprise flushing a little.
-C'mon, tear up- Buffy did what she was told and found the book she love, her eyes were wide and she has that goofy smile in her face -that's not all...open it.-
Again Buffy did what Faith told her and inside the book in the first page was Ephram`s autograph.
-O my god!!! Faith...this is...how..how could you ...do you know him? how did you get it?-
-Is Giles`s friend.-
-Is Faith`s Father.-
Giles and Faith said at the same time, everyone were looking at them suspisiously.
-Is my father.-
-Is my friend.-
Again they both said that at the same time. This time the scooby gang but Buffy were giving them an undertanding glare, Faith was really nervous and was giving at Giles an helpless look. Giles clear his throat.
-He actually he is my friend and Faith`s father...we...we found him in England and...Faith asked him for an..ummm...autograph...yeah...-
-Yeah that happened my father was there and a bought the book and he sign it.-
-Wow thanks- and for the first time Buffy did something that left Faith worst than ever, she give her a kiss in her cheek. Buffy and the rest of the gang went to the dining room, but Faith just stood there with her fingertips in her cheek.
-So, girlfriend, miss me?- Faith put a hand over Buffy`s shoulder while the gang was leaving the house, Buffy just avoid Faith and free herself from her embrace.
-Of course I miss you, the slaying isn`t the same without you.-
-Yeah, and the horny part isn`t the same without me either- Buffy stop dead in the bottom of the stairs, Faith grinned a little glad that Buffy still remember the few times they were togheter. Before Buffy could replied, Joyce appear in front of them.
-Faith honey you're gonna sleep with Buffy tonight and tomorrow we will finish the basement, that`s ok with you?-
-Yeah Mrs S, fine by me. You ok with that B?-
-Mmm...yes, yes- and without a word Buffy run upstairs.
-Oh, Faith can you come with me tomorrow? I have an appointment?-
-Appointment?-
-Yes, the Doctor ...he want to check my head.-
-Oh really, how was the surgery.-
-Fine is just a routine...-
-Oh yeah. Night Mrs S, and thanks for...everything.-
-You're welcome Faith.-
When Faith arrive to the room Buffy was already in bed apparently sleep, Faith change in the pyjama and went to bed. She could fell Buffy tensed up, a little angry with herself for let her mouth talk nonsense she fall sleep.
12:30
**This is a bad idea...bad...idea...I can`t..she is ....GOD WHAT`S WRONG WITH ME??!!...what is she doing to me???....** Buffy was trying to have more contact, she want her fingers going in, but her position and the company make everything difficult.
-Fuck!- she whispered frustrated before took her hand out from her panties and rolled under the covers for the twelfth time that night.
-Fuck B!!! that`s enough!!- said Faith turning on her side facing at an ashamed Buffy. -What the hell is under your ass B?? Fleas? ticks? Jesus!!! I can`t sleep if you continue with your little session relaxation therapy!-
-I wasn`t doing anything F...I was just...well I...- Faith was looking at her with a wicked smille in her face -YOU TOOK ALL MY BED!!! I was just trying to recover one part.-
-Yeah right...I`m a fucking slayer B...I can here...and feel your way to "recover" your space- Buffy blushed furiosly and turn from Faith giving her, her back. -O right you do that and the problem is gone....God I should have take Dawn's offer.-
Buffy turn on her side again giving Faith a hurt look.
-Well go, no one is stopping you.-
-It`s almost one in the morning B...don`t worry, for tomorrow I`m goinna have my own room..-
-Fine.-
-Fine.-
They were quiet for awhile both of them unable to go back to sleep, the were thinking too much in the other.
After the appointment at the doctor`s, Joyce and Faith went to the mall both woman were quiet. On one hand Joyce was thinking what the doctor said to her and Faith was thinking in Buffy and Dawn and what they are going to do if Joyce died. Unintentionally, Faith overheard the conversation between Buffy`s mum and doctor Ben.
-So, how was the appointment Mrs. S?- Faith finally decided talk about that, Joyce give her a sad smille.
-I don`t think he said anything more after you left the door Faith- the girl smille weakly giving Buffy`s mum an apologetic look.
-Sorry Mrs. S, I didn`t mean...it wasn`t my intention...I..-
-It`s ok Faith- said Joyce with a little smile -look, I need to talk to you about that....so what do you said about lunch in the food court?-
-Yeah sure....-
Faith was eager to know what Joyce was going to tell her, she was sure it had to do with the conversation at doctor`s, but what Joyce told her was the last thing she could ever imagine.
-Well Faith, I don`t blame you I think it was better in that way because now I don`t have to explain to you how important is this conversation- Faith nodded guilty and sad, Joyce sigh -After you left, Buffy told me everything about the accident in the alley...- Faith tensed at the mention of that specific moment, Joyce give her a reassure smile -I was afraid because of Buffy, because her reaction to the accident, the way she try to free herself of the problem...-
-No Mrs. S, that`s... it was all my fault she didn`t do anything wrong, she...-
-She was there!- said Joyce -Look Faith what I`m trying to said it`s that, I never seen my daughter so happy, free and...alive since your fisrt arrive to Sunnydale, she was another person...not even with Angel she felt in that way.-
Faith couldn`t help and ironic smile. **Yeah, right...I mean, does Mrs Summers know that Angel arrrived at the same time that me?**
-She loves you Faith, and I know you love her.-
Faith looked Joyce with scepticism and surprise, she was so obvious? But, she try to hide her feelings for Buffy since the day they fought Kakistos, it was hard considering that she spend almost all her time with her, and after Angel came back and the diasaster in the homecoming dance....well she try to fight and forget her love for Buffy failing miserably. Joyce watch her with a little smile.
-I read your book- she continue with the conversation, Faith give her a shocked look.
-My...my..book? how do you know?? I mean....-
-It`s funny the way all young people think their parents or adults in general are dumb or blind.-
-Well it`s just that I never thought you could read my book and know who the real writer is.-
-Well it was kind of difficult at first, because Buffy was on my everyday telling me the story and not let me read it, but after I free myself of her and finished the book I just have to asked the right people and found out that you were the person who write that book.-
Faith smile shyly, she never tought Mrs. S could discover her secret love for her daughter and the fact that she look cool with that was all Faith need for try something with B. They both stay quiet for a while, looking at each other thoughtfully. Finally Joyce broke the silence again.
-Dawn is a strong girl, But Buffy....she try to be strong but she is such a kid most of the time, she is fragile and...innocent..in a way.- Joyce looked at Faith straight to her eyes -Faith I want you to take care of Buffy. If something happen to me, I want you to be there for her, for protect her and love her.-
-Mrs. S you don`t...-
-Promise me- Joyce was implorant, Faith looked at her, even if Joyce didn`t ask her for that Faith will do it anyway.
-I promise you that I will always love and protect B, always.-
...to be continued...