Tell Me Why
by Mary
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: These characters are the property of Joss Whedon.
Spoilers: Season three of BTVS and Angel season one.
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"If you apologize to me I'll beat you to death." Buffy said glaring up at her enemy. "Go ahead." Faith said sheepishly her eyes downcast. "This is not gonna happen." Angel replied. "You gonna stop me, cause you're gonna have to." Buffy said glaring at Angel. "Don't do this." Faith said her eyes full of pain. "Faith go upstairs, now." "You think I'm gonna let her out of my sight. There is no way I'm letting her outta my sight." Buffy replied. "Faith go." Faith quickly mounted the stairs, missing the two ex-lovers exchange of blows.
Hearing that the council's operations team was on its way Faith and Buffy headed to the roof of Angel's place. Buffy walked up behind Faith. "You're not gonna run Faith." "What do you want to do? You gonna throw me off the roof again?" Faith replied. Buffy's come back was "Is there any reason I shouldn't." "There's nothing I can do B, I can't ever make it right." Faith said her voice soft and full of emotion. Neither woman moved both were lost in their own thoughts.
Both girls jumped when the door to the roof burst open and an operative opened fire. Instinct kicked in and Buffy threw her body over Faith's shielding her from the gun fire. *Oh my god this feels so good,* both women thought, Buffy climbed off Faith, grabbed her hand and pulled her quickly to her feet. "Come on we gotta get out of here." Buffy screamed at Faith. The slayers rushed to the end of the roof and grabbed hands again before making the jump to the next building. They landed hard and lay still for a moment shocked by the impact. "Come on B let's find a place to hide, we're slayers but these guys have guns." The slayers ran side by side to the stairwell entrance. They opened the door and found it was pitch black, no lighting at all. "Hold on B I've got a lighter." Faith lit up and the two started down the stairs. They stumbled down several flights before exiting.
"Jackpot B, nobody's living here." Faith smiled. "Not good F, nobody's living here, so nobody can hear screaming slayers getting killed." Buffy replied worriedly. "Yeh they can take us out easy here, but will they find us? - I don't think so - they're just people - not vampires or demons."
Faith kicked in a locked apartment door. "Come on B, get in and be quiet."
"Oh yeh, me quiet, you're the one smashing doors." Buffy glared at her enemy but followed her into the dark apartment. Faith's lighter illuminated the abandoned rooms, in what used to be the bedroom a mattress sat in the corner of the room. Faith flopped herself down on it and whispered "might as well be comfortable while we wait this out." Once Buffy joined her, the lighter went out and they sat in silence.
"Faith" Buffy hissed. Faith interrupted "Damn B thought you could keep your mouth shut longer than thirty seconds, guess I was wrong again." Buffy swatted her in response but lay down next to the rogue slayer. It only took a short time for both girls' eyes to adjust to the darkness. Faith could see that Buffy was staring at her intensely, it made her uncomfortable. *Damn she looks like she wants to gut me like a fish. I wish there was some way that I could make things better.*
The building remained silent, but neither slayer wanted to venture from the room.
After a very long silence Faith whispered "B, do you hate me so much that I'll never be able to make you see that I'm not the monster I was?" When Buffy didn't answer Faith turned and rolled away onto her side, she didn't want Buffy to look at her and see the hurt in her eyes.
Buffy remained silent, she really didn't know how to answer Faith's question - suddenly she didn't know how she felt about the sexy slayer laying inches away. *Okay I want to hurt her like she hurt me, so why do I want to pull her close to me and feel her body against mine.* Buffy shook her head and tried to clear her thoughts. *What's wrong with me.*
After several minutes Buffy gently touched Faith's shoulder. "B, forget it, I know there's nothing I can do." Buffy rubbed Faith's shoulder in response and moved up closer to the brunette.
"Faith, you can" Buffy whispered "Tell me why, why'd you turn against us, hurt us all? What did I do that made you treat me that way?"
Faith sighed. "Buffy" she hesitated but continued "You probably think I was jealous of you being the real slayer, having friends, watcher, family. But I was jealous of them not you, because you cared about them." "Oh", Buffy said moving closer still and resting her neck on top of Faith's shoulder.
*Fuck she's listening to me and touching me, I must have fallen asleep, I'm definitely dreaming.* Faith leaned back enjoying Buffy's face and body pressed to her own. "Come on Faith you're opening up don't stop." "Sorry B got lost for a moment."
WARNING: Didn't start out this way but got wicked sappy - Must be the wine I drank tonight.
*Shit this is heaven* Faith thought as Buffy pressed against her.
"Come on Faith you were opening up, don't stop." "Sorry B got lost for a moment."
Faith turned to stare into Buffy's eyes. "B, don't make me say it." Faith pleaded.
*Oh, I don't want you to say it, I want you to scream it -'Buffy I love you, I want you, I'm cumin so hard for you, oh fuck, this isn't me - what am I thinking - an hour ago I could have killed her - but fuck I really want her, I want my fingers inside her.* Buffy struggled to stay in control. "F just tell me what ever you're comfy with."
Faith's body trembled as she resumed - "I thought that we were getting close - thought you might care for me the way that I cared for you, but you didn't.." Faith faltered. "B, don't hate me."
Buffy felt Faith trembling and gave in, spooning her body against the gorgeous dark slayer. "It's ok Faith; you don't have to talk if you don't want to."
Buffy pulled Faith even closer against her and wrapped her arm around Faith's waist.
"Buffy I loved you, and all I wanted was for you to love me too." *Ah fuck, I said it out loud.* Faith let her head drop to the mattress.
"Faith, don't stop, talk to me." Buffy moaned as she began to slowly massage Faith's back.
*Oh fuck, this feels so good - god I'm shaking - if B didn't know when I opened my dumb ass mouth, she sure as hell knows now.*
"Faith it's ok" Buffy said as she continued to rub her fingers over Faith's shoulders. She slowly rubbed Faith's neck. *She's so sexy, I so want to touch her all over.* "Faith I don't hate you, I felt something back then too, I guess that's why everything you did hurt me so much."
"B, let me make it up to you." Faith said turning herself around to face Buffy. Buffy couldn't believe how good it felt to have Faith's hand gently caressing her face. "Buffy please let me." Buffy just nodded, her eyes filled with desire. Faith moved closer her lips mere inches away from the girl she'd wanted for years. Buffy closed the distance; she closed her eyes and brought her lips to brush against Faith's.
*Oh fuck, she's kissing Me.* Faith pulled Buffy to her and returned the kiss - with a kiss that revealed everything she felt for the petite slayer. The two continued to kiss gently for minutes before they both started to really heat up.
As their kissing became more urgent Buffy pulled away to rid herself of her shirt and toss it aside. "You too Faith," she said as she tugged at her lover's tank top. Faith yanked it off. "Oh Faith, you're so beautiful." Faith let Buffy stare for an instant before climbing onto the older slayer's waist and unclasping her bra.
Faith slid down a bit and settled between Buffy's wide spread legs before flicking her tongue over one nipple as she circled her fingers teasingly over the other. Faith just played for a bit, enjoying the feeling of Buffy's hips moving against her body in response. She moved up again to kiss Buffy's neck before returning to her mouth and kissing her passionately.
Faith rained light kisses down Buffy's chest enjoying the moans that B made with each touch of her tongue. She worked her way slowly down Buffy's stomach lingering just above the top button of her pants.
"Umm B you smell so good." Buffy bucked her hips against Faith. That was all it took, Faith unbuttoned only two buttons before yanking off Buffy's pants along with her panties.
Faith didn't tease, her tongue started to lap at Buffy's clit. Buffy moaned and arched up, wanting to feel Faith's lips on her and her tongue and fingers inside her. She wasn't disappointed; Faith began to lap her from one end to the other, sucking up her juices.
*She's so sweet I could just lay here licking her all night.* Faith thought as she pushed her tongue as far into B as she could. When she could feel Buffy was almost at the edge and replaced her tongue with two fingers.
"Oh Faith," Buffy surged up hard against the fingers fucking her. "I'm fucking you B, oh my god," Faith added another finger and moved one down to caress her girl's asshole.
"Oh fuck Faith that feels soooo good, oh right there, oh god I'm cumin." Faith felt the throbbing against her fingers and continued to move them very slowly prolonging Buffy's orgasm. "Faith I love you, too," Buffy whispered as she pulled her lover up into her arms.
The vampire stood in the doorway watching. *It still hurts so much to see her with anyone else. But this was how it was meant to be, this was how things would have been if I didn't come back.* Angel thought as he walked away from the apartment as silently as he had entered.
Faith smiled before drifting off to sleep, she was so content, finally she knew what a moment of true happiness was.