Desirable Confessions
by Rochelle
Rating: R
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I stood outside the door contemplating what I was doing there. Faith had been in a real bad mood lately and I wasn't exactly sure why, so here I was, trying to find out. It surprised me that I couldn't hear any loud music, she normally had Korn blasting out whenever I came round. Taking a deep breath I raised my hand and...
"Er hey B, want something?"
Damn she opened the door before I had a chance to knock. One of these days I'm gonna remember that her and me tend to sense each other before we see each other.
"Faith, hi. I was just about to knock."
She seemed like she was trying not to laugh and lent against the door frame.
"Well ya been standing outside my door, looking at it like it's going to bite you for about 5 minutes now B."
I sighed and then laughed at myself, looking back up at her. She had a smirk on her face but for once, behind the smirk I could see something was bothering her. I guess she noticed cus she coughed and then stepped to the side.
"Erm you erm, wanna come in? You'll have to excuse the mess, what with slaying and then catching up on my sleep it's pretty messy."
I smiled at her, it was sort of an attempt to put her at ease. I was slightly puzzled though, she'd never apologised for her room being messy before. I looked round the room for somewhere to sit and she shut the door, moving infront of me to grab some clothes off her chair and bed, indicating for me to sit in the chair.
"Thanks." I said smiling at her and sitting down again.
She dumped the stuff in a pile in the corner and then walked back over to the bed, sitting down opposite me.
"I guess you wanna know why I'm here, I mean I don't normally just stop around." She nodded at me.
"Yeah I was kinda curious B, not often I get an unslayer related visit..." She paused, "Is it slayer related?"
"No, it's not. Actually I came to see you cause I was worried."
That caught a puzzled glance from the younger slayer. She looked slightly worried, as if I found something out I shouldn't have which just made me curious as to what she felt she had to hide from me.
"Worried about me B? What made you worried?"
"You've been real distant lately, when we've been out slaying. I mean I know we don't hang out much together but I still count you as one of my closest friends Faith and I just wondered what was wrong. So, is there something bothering you?"
It sounded lame I had to admit. Me saying to her that I felt she was one of my closest friends? God she was just gonna think I was trying to play her, I wasn't! I was truely worried about her. She was looking around the room, anything but me which didn't help me feel anymore at ease.
God, what was she doing here. I was just glad I sensed her as soon as she arrived and she took as long as she did to go to knock. Yeah I did have something to hide, actually the reason I had a problem was cause of her. No it wasn't directly her fault, I can't blame her. Okay Faith, be honest. The reason I have a problem is cause of myself. Yeah, big bad tough Faith can't deal with her problems so she just creates another one.
"You've been real distant lately, when we've been out slaying. I mean I know we don't hang out much together but I still count you as one of my closest friends Faith and I just wondered what was wrong. So, is there something bothering you?" She says to me.
What'd I tell her? The truth? I can't do that, I mean what's she going to think of me? I got two choices here and only one of them is the smart one. I've never been smart though have I? Option one is the truth, explain to her what's going on and ask for help. Okay well not the whole truth, I just leave out the part which the problem started from. Option two is more my usual style. I hate that I do it but somewhere in my head I keep reminding myself that if I do chose this option then it'll hurt her less. Yeah the option is to push her away, lie to her, do anything just don't let her know what's going on.
I know I'm looking round the room, anything but her, trying to figure out what the hell to do. That's when the memories start hitting me, I'm becoming my father. I'm drinking like he did and I'm using people like he did. But I'm not like him am I? Would I do to my kid what he do to me? Not a fucking chance in hell, I'd rather die.
"Darling come here." No response.
"I said come here you fucking whore."
A young fragile looking girl walks over to where the voice is coming from.
"Now be a good girl for daddy, play nicely with my friends and I'll buy you an ice cream, how's that sound?"
Leaning forward he catches her arm, gripping tightly and pulling her towards him.
I lean forward and grab her arm gently, just to try get her attention. Not quite the reaction I was hoping for, she jerks back from my touch and looks at me with a fiery rage burning in her eyes. She shakes her head and the expression softens but still with a tough exterior.
"Faith?" I question.
"Sorry B, just ya know. Not used to people surprising me like that."
"So, what's bothering you? Don't say nothing cause with the way you just reacted it has to be something."
I'm surprising myself here. I mean I haven't cared like this before about her so what's got into me? Actually I know exactly what's gotten into me. I spent most of last night thinking. She didn't come on patrol with me which was unusual but I was grateful for that. Gave me time to think, seems to be what I've done alot of lately. It's thanks to Will that I've been thinking these thoughts though. She stopped me the other week when I was about to go slaying with Faith. Asked me what I thought of her and I just gave her a quizzical look. She went on to explain that she's seen me looking at Faith, with a, I don't know, with a lustful gaze I guess. I didn't even notice I was doing it but Will says I have and that she thinks I should talk to Faith about it.
Shit! Why the hell did she have to do that. Grabbing my arm when I'm thinking isn't the best thing to do. For once though I'm gonna be smart, I'm gonna tell her what's going on. B seems to be battling her own demons though. She's got an expression on her face, the serious one she gets when she's thinking. Yeah I know all her expressions. I've spent long enough watching her.
"B."
I say quietly to get her attention. She turns her gaze back to me and I wonder what she's thinking. It's now or never Faith, you have to talk to her. I take a deep breath and look at her one more time before getting up and turning away from her. It's the only way I'll get this out if I talk about it.
"I've been doing some thinking lately. Erm I didn't do it the best way though. I mean I've been drinking heavily when I haven't seen you and due to Slayer qualities and all that crap, I've just about managed to sober up by the time we go on patrol."
I turn around and signal my hand out for her not to talk just yet, I can see she wants to say something but she sits patiently for me to finish.
"That's why I blew off patrol with you the other night, I hadn't sobered up yet and I didn't want you to see me in that state. I did and do have a reason for drinking. I mean I got other things on my mind which include you and are about you but I'll explain it when it's a better time. The thing that's been making me drink is that it's uh, it's been about 7 years this month..."
I look at her and she's slightly puzzled as to what the 7 year thing is. But there's another expression there, it's care. To be honest it shocks me and scares me a little but there's an edge of compassion to her face and she looks like she cares.
She's opening up to me. I didn't think she would but she is and I can't even explain how happy that's making me feel right now. Well I guess it's not actually. I mean I feel bad and I feel guilty. She's hurting, that much I can see. She's hurting herself and I wasn't there for her, I don't know what over yet though. She was just getting round to it and now she's looking at me.
"What's been 7 years Faith?"
I ask her and she gets that look back in her eyes. She's scared of telling me and I think she's wondering if she can tell me or not.
"You can tell me Faith, I'm not gonna judge you."
It sets her more at ease and I can see her try to compose herself again, she looks as though she's going to continue and I give her a little smile, to try encourage her.
"It's been 7 years since my father decided to let his friends use me. To let them take away from me what I wasn't gonna be able to get back."
She laughed in a kind of choked way, I guess trying to fight tears before she continues. I can feel my own tears coming. God what kind of sick father would allow that to happen to his kid?
"He uh, he waited until all his friends had left before walking back over to me where they'd left me. Told me how much of a whore I was after what happened. That it was my fault they raped me. My fault that my own father, that he'd let me become part of paying off a bet. I didn't stay with him for long, he left me. Disappeared somewhere I guess, so I became part of the system. I finally got out when I was 16, my watcher Kate got me. But uh, as you know, clove guy got her. So that's why I've been drinking."
I braced myself for the pity. I mean I'd just told her what was going on in my head, or most of it. The whole fucked up story. Pity never came though. She got up and slowly walked over to me, taking me into a tight hug. She was gentle, I guess she didn't want me to freak out again. We stayed like that for a few minutes before she stepped back. I could see the tears running down her face and just assumed I must've looked the same way.
"I don't pity you Faith, I know you don't want that. You're so strong, you know that? For going through all that. I won't pity you Faith, you don't deserve that but I respect you. I couldn't imagine what it must've felt to have those assholes do that to you."
I laughed at this earning another puzzled look from her.
"Never heard you swear before Buffy, just made me laugh."
I took her into my arms and hugged her. I guess it was my way of attempting to take away the pain she felt. Inside I was burning with rage at how someone could do that to her. I wouldn't show it though and the rage slowly fizzled away, replaced but compassion and concern.
"I don't pity you Faith, I know you don't want that. You're so strong, you know that? For going through all that. I won't pity you Faith, you don't deserve that but I respect you. I couldn't imagine what it must've felt to have those assholes do that to you."
Okay so some of my rage was still there but I mean, would you be able to contain it totally? I knew now what I felt for her and that I was ready for it. I was ready to tell her I loved her, ready to show her and make her understand she was worth loving. She laughed at me and it brought me out of my thoughts again.
"Never heard you swear before Buffy, just made me laugh."
"You called me my whole name."
I smiled, not that I didn't like the nickname, I did. I mean it was her personal nickname for me, a name no-one else called me. It was just that hearing my whole name coming from her lips was good, it made me feel happy. I remembered what she said, about having something to tell me, so I sat down on the bed and patted the space beside me. She smiled back at me and sat down.
"I know you've just opened up to me about that and you don't know how pleased I am to have you trust me Faith, I just have one question though. What was it you wanted to tell me?"
Oh god. She wants to know. My mind races trying to think of something, anything to tell her but I don't know. I mean I'm on a truth kick right? Maybe I should just tell her the truth. Yeah right. As soon as I tell her I'm going to lose the person that is closest to me. I think carefully. There must be some way to do this.
"B, is there anything that I can't tell you? I mean is there something that if I told you then you'd never talk to me again?"
"Nope nothing, you can tell me anything."
Okay so that didn't work. I need to find a better way of asking. She's smiling at me and still waiting to find out what it is. I try a more direct approach.
"What's your view on girls liking girls?"
This shocks the hell out of her that I've asked. She's blushing a deeper red than Willow's hair which makes me grin a little. But at least I've tried asking, right?
Does she know? I mean she's just asked me what I think about girls liking girls. She must know something, unless...Does she like me that way too? God too many questions are running through my mind right now. She was honest with me right? So I should be honest back. I take a deep breath and try to calm my nerves. Here goes.
"I don't see anything wrong with it. It's perfectly acceptable, I mean more than that. Why should anyone have a problem with a girl liking another girl?"
She seems to think this over for a minute and then looks at me and starts to speak again.
"I did kinda have a reason for asking that. I don't know the best way to say things though so I'm just gonna try with actions."
I look at her slightly confused and then she moves her hand up my cheek and pushes a strand of hair behind my ear. I think about it a split second before she does it. She leant forward and slowly kisses me. She's kissing me. Process the thought Buffy, the girl of your dreams has her lips on yours. I part my lips slightly, letting her know it's okay and urging her to continue.
I don't know whether I should've or not but before I actually think about it, I've done it. I leant forward and am now kissing her. No complaints so far. I can tell I'm grinning, she's parting her lips and I take it as a sign that it's okay. I slide my tongue gently into her mouth and deepen the kiss, bringing my arms up to around her waist. I pull away slowly hoping she's going to answer me and understand what I was trying to do there.
"Wow."
The first words out of her mouth. That's good right? I mean she hasn't yelled or told me that I was wrong and out of line and shouldn't have done it. She kissed me back and now she's saying wow.
"Yeah, wow."
I echo her words back to her, I know I'm grinning like a fucking cheshire cat but I don't care, I just kissed her and even that is worth her now telling me to get out.
"So B, I just...I told you I'm no good with words, I didn't know what to say or how to say it or..."
She silences me with a finger on my lips and smiles at me.
"You a mind reader or something?"
She's grinning and I take it that means she's not pissed off with me or anything.
She kissed me. Yeah I know I'm still hung up on that. It's just I mean, wow doesn't cover it. Where'd that girl learn to kiss like that? It was amazing, better than that I mean if that's how she kisses then I'd love to see...no keep my mind from there. There's no way I'll keep a rational thought if I think that.
"You a mind reader or something?"
I say to her. I mean I came here a) Because I was worried about her and b) I think I was planning on telling her how I felt, I mean I'm pretty sure I was going to tell her.
"I didn't just come here because I was worried Faith, I came here to talk to you about how I felt about you."
I continue without giving her time to think, I mean I can do this right? How hard is it to tell her how I feel? Not very except for the fact that I'm leaving myself wide open to a world of hurt if she doesn't feel the same way back.
"I came here to tell you that I think I'm falling for you. Well actually I don't think, I know I've fallen for you Faith and in a big way. It's taken me coming here and you doing that..."
I grin as I remember the kiss and the way in which her lips felt on mine, so soft and gentle but with passion and lust lingering on them.
"...for me to admit how I really feel. I mean I thought I did and I've been thinking about it alot but now I know. I love you Faith."
I didn't just hear that did I? Buffy Summers telling me she loved me? Nah my hearings gotta be off, I mean why would she love me? Especially after what I just told her. I'm looking blankly at her trying to figure out what's going on in that head of hers.
"I said I love you, you didn't mishear it. I mean it Faith, I'm not kidding around here."
I'm looking at her again and she's wide open to me. I mean I can see clearly what she's thinking and feeling, she's really put herself on the line here. It takes me less than a second to know I love her back, I mean I knew I loved her before she said that, before we kissed, hell if it's even possible I knew I loved her before I met her.
"I love you too Buffy."
I say grinning. I can't help it, I mean I've got the best girl in the world, girl of every fantasy, every dream I have, sitting infront of me telling me she loves me. As good as this feeling is, the doubt slowly starts to appear. Dammit Faith, can't you just be happy for once? Obviously not. Buffy senses it too and questions me. I owe it to her to be honest.
"Faith? What's wrong?"
"B, where does this leave us? I mean I love you and you love me back but the Scoobies aren't gonna be over the moon and your mom? and Giles? What are we gonna do?"
I've only just told her I love her and she's told me she loves me back and she's worrying about me and my friends. It's actually cute and I'm wondering whether I should tell her but she's deadly serious so I chose not to.
"Don't worry about them, ok? It's important to me, sure but so are you. You're more important and nothing and no-one is coming between us. I won't let them Faith. So does this mean you'll stop worrying and go out with me?"
I finish my sentance with a smirk. I don't think I've ever asked anyone out before, they always asked me but this is different. She made one big step by kissing me so aside from telling her I loved her, I'm making the next. Asking her to be my girlfriend.
"You know I will B, I just don't want you getting hurt."
"I won't."
I say it and lean over, kissing her again. It feels good, when I'm in her arms I feel safe. When her lips are on mine I just feel like we could have an earthquake and I wouldn't notice cause of how she's making me feel. She growls low in her throat, invoking my own primal actions from inside, but I want to take this slow so I pull back. She smiles, seeming to understand and nuzzles my neck, sighing happily.
"I hate to break the moment Faith, but we're due for research at the library in about 20 minutes."
"It's ok. I'll see you when you get back?"
"You ignoring me already?"
I say smirking, knowing full well she's trying to get out of research.
"I said *we're* due at the library and besides, I've got something important to share with them."
"You're telling them now?!"
My girlfriend, Buffy Summers. God it feels so good just to think it. I'm betting saying it will be better still. She's so adorable when she's being protective. Okay so maybe adorable wasn't the first word that came to mind, more like sexy, but I'm brushing that thought side for now. Have to keep the hormones in check.
"You're telling them now?!"
It's not like I mind her telling Giles and her friends, but now? as in right now? She's serious, she really does love me. Yeah okay I knew she loved me but telling her friends and Giles? That's all the way serious.
"Yeah why not now?"
"I just wanna make sure you're sure."
"I'm sure that I'm sure."
She's got a cute, agree with me, face on so I can't exactly argue.
"Okay then."
I say kissing her gently again before standing up. I straighten my top out and pick my jacket up, sliding it over my shoulders and on before offering my hand out to help her up.
"Ready girlfriend?"
Oh yeah, that's good to say!
We're on the way to the library now and I'm nervous as hell. I'm holding onto Faith's hand and she's giving it a reasurring squeeze every few minutes. I just want the Scoobs to be happy for me, I don't think this is just important for me. As much as Faith hasn't admitted it, their approval is important for her too, especially Giles'. I think after what she's told me, he's like the father she never had. Well he is to both of us.
"You ok?"
She asks with a concerned look breaking my chain of thoughts. I glance at where we are and it's right by my locker near the library. I didn't even notice us coming into school.
"Yeah I will be, after this."
"They care about you B, it'll be okay."
"I hope so Faith, I really do."
I let go of her hand, take a deep breath, once more glance at her and then walk into the library.
B's real nervous about this and I can't help but feel sorry for her and bad about the position I've put her in...but I haven't have I? Cus if I hadn't have done that she'd have told me she loves me anyway. Always know how to put that smile back on my face.
"I hope so Faith, I really do."
She lets go of my hand for obvious reasons and then walks into the library. I follow in behind her and remind myself to keep any smart comments in check. This is important to her so that makes it important to me.
"Hey guys."
They're all in there, waiting for B to show up from the looks of it. A few puzzled looks at my arrival. See I don't normally do the research thing, not my style but if B wants me to do something I will, not that that's why I'm here right now. I look at B wondering if she wants to do this now or not and she nods at me so I assume a position behind her, leaning against the library counter.
I nod at Faith to let her know I'm prepared to tell them and she takes up leaning against Giles' counter. Taking a deep breath I know I have to get this out now, they'll be happy for me right? I mean they are my friends.
"Giles?"
"Yes, coming."
I think Giles will be the most understanding, I mean he's always been there for me and so he should be able to accept my descion. Xander is not going to accept this...it's his hard luck, he's going to have to get used to it sometime. I have no idea which way Will'll go, she seems to be slightly jealous of the time I spend with Faith so now maybe she'll understand the reason I spend so much time with her. Oz and Cordy won't really care either way, apart from the cheerleader might have a few choice words to say about my choice of girlfriend.
"Can you all sit down please, I've got something important I need to tell you."
"Sure Buffster. Is it another evil?"
Trust Xander to think that, no it's a life choice. I can see Faith shifting slightly behind me and I know I've gotta get this said, if not for my sanity then for hers.
"Erm I really have no experience in having ever had to say this before so I guess the best thing would be just to come out and say it. Faith and I are seeing each other."
"Yeah me and Wills can see her too."
"No not like that Xander."
"Then what do you mean like."
They've all got these puzzled expressions on their faces and I've gotta explain this before they get even more confused. I think Willow knows what I mean as she's gone quiet and is staring at Faith.
"I mean me and Faith are involved. She's my girlfriend, we love each other."
"I mean me and Faith are involved. She's my girlfriend, we love each other."
As hard as I try I can't supress the grin that I get when she says that last bit. Yeah I still can't get over Buffy Summers, the Buffy Summers, Slayer extraordinaire loving me. It's such a high that I loose myself in it until I realise I've got an accusing stare pointed in my direction. Xander. Trust wonder boy to not accept it, it's only cus he's got the hots for me and has had a crush on Buffy ever since she entered their lives.
"Has anyone got a problem with it?"
I step forward asking in a soft voice. They've never got to see this side of me and I want them to try see how much of an impact Buffy loving me back has had on me. Red looks around to see if anyone else is going to say anything and then gets up and walks over to Buffy. I just hope to god she doesn't upset her, cus if she does then I won't be responsibile for my anger.
"Well, I can't speak for anyone else in here but Buffy, I'm so proud of you for telling us."
Woah. Red just approved us? Well that's a kick ass start to the gang's approval. Red has major power over Xander and Giles and well Oz, but he'd never be a problem. She hugs Buffy tightly and then looks in my direction and walks over to me.
"I'm happy for you too Faith. I mean I know I've been slightly, um I guess a little, well maybe hostile towards you a bit bu..bu..but I'm really happy for you. You too Buffy."
She says all this with a smile and then hugs me which shocks the hell outta me. I can see Buffy giggling out of the corner of my eye and I know I must've looked such a fool when she did that. I gotta take the next step for Buffy, so after the hug finishes I look back towards the group. I figure the approval Buffy needs the most is Giles' so he's my target.
"G man? You cool with this?"
He looks at me with a stunned look and then takes his glasses off, polishing them. Is that an english thing? I gotta know cus he's always doing. I'll ask sometime but now it's time for seriousness.
"Erm well it's a bit of a surprise but yes. I'm sure that Buffy has made the correct decision and that you're not thinking of hurting her and all will go well with your relationship. The slayer connection on it's own is a benifit, I mean think of the rewards of two slayers not only being physically but emotionally a team. It'll be superb. Oh and Faith?"
I look straight at him worried about the next bit. I mean what he's already said has all been wicked cool, he approves which is what Buffy needs. I give him my attention and wait for what's next.
"Yeah G?"
"Don't ever call me G man again."
I burst out laughing, I can't help it. B's right there with me though, grinning and laughing like the cat who got the cream. 2 down, 1 more vital person within the Scooby gang to go.
This has gone better than ever so far. I mean Willow's given her approval and I can't help but feel so relieved about it. I need to know that Giles and Xander are okay about it though, they mean alot to me and not having their approval is going to hurt me.
"Erm well it's a bit of a surprise but yes. I'm sure that Buffy has made the correct decision and that you're not thinking of hurting her and all will go well with your relationship. The slayer connection on it's own is a benifit, I mean think of the rewards of two slayers not only being physically but emotionally a team. It'll be superb. Oh and Faith?"
God yes! I'm jumping up and down and doing somersaults inside my stomach. He approves! Oh my god this is so great, I mean Giles? He's like my second father, he's the best.
"Yeah G?"
"Don't ever call me G man again."
I start laughing in sync with Faith. Classic Giles, one of the reasons I love him. As Giles-y as he is, he's still the same old british guy who first arrived here that time I moved here. I remember Xander hasn't said anything and slowly my giggles subside. Faith hears my laughter fade and takes it as a sign to stop to. Another one of the things I love about us, we're so in-tune. I look at Xander and decide the best example to follow is Faith's, so I'm gonna ask him.
"Xander? You haven't said anything yet. Are you okay with this?"
"What? Well lemme think about it. All the time I've had a crush on you and you've never thought to tell me you're into girls?"
Oh god he's pissed. I guess I couldn't have expected him to be anything but pissed, still. He's one of my best friends, him and Will all the way. How am I gonna make things right? I realise he's smirking now.
"Are you kidding me? You and Faith together? God every guys dream come true. I guess the only problem I have is thinking that you guys are gonna be doing all your *cough* slayer practice in private right? I mean I can't watch?"
Faith bursts out laughing again and wonders over to me. Please tell me she's not gonna do what I think she is. She is though, I can tell what's going through her mind. She slowly wraps her arms round my waist and leans in, kissing me softly before breaking away and looking at Xander.
"Xander stop drooling! God! You two know what you're doing to him?"
Cordy's in a fit of outrage now and I can't help but smile that it's all working out.
"So that mean you and Oz okay with it?"
"Yes I'm fine with it as long as you don't keep making my boyfriend do that! Xander!"
She yells at him again and he looks to click back into reality, wiping the drool off his chin.
"I'm good with it. I trust Will's judgment."
Oz cool as ever. I smile, this is so cool.
Everything's working out. I'm grinning just as much as Buffy is. The only one who's not smiling right now is Cordelia, and that's cus I just put on a little show of kissing Buffy for Xander. It's all good though. I begin to remember what we were up to before this little research party meeting interrupted us. I know that I've just gone a deeper shade of red again and cough loudly. 6 pairs of eyes suddenly focus on me and I lean over to whisper in B's ear.
"Remember what we were doing before this little meeting?"
She looks and me and then starts grinning before turning back to face the group again.
"Erm guys. Me and Faith, we got uh well we were gonna go get something to eat before the meeting but kinda ran a little late so we're gonna go now...to get that something to eat."
I suppress the need to giggle, the way she babbles like that, god it's cute. I know why she is though and why she's blushing. Well I'm just gonna see if I can increase the blush.
Faith and me are heading back towards my house now, my mom's at an art meeting in Boston for the week so we're not going to be interrupted or have to give any explanations as to what we're doing. Faith's holding my hand again and I've still got that goofy grin on my face after her reminding me of what we were doing previously to the meeting. We're about half way to my house and I'm shivering a little, the winds blowing pretty harshly and it looks like rain, what are the chances in Sunnydale?
"Here put this on."
Faith says sliding her jacket off and onto my shoulders.
"Then you'll freeze."
"We're almost at your house B, you can get me a hot choccy when we get there and help warm me up, k?"
She's got a suggestive smirk on her face and I can't help but grin back at her. I pull her jacket tightly round me and I breath in deeply, inhaling her scent. It's not far now and I tug on her hand, breaking out into a light jog and turning round to see her puzzled gaze.
"Race ya there!"
I call out to her and start running. She's right behind me and I slow down just as I get to my door, only to have her slam right into me.
"Race ya there!"
I can see the glint in her eyes and the fact she knows she'll win so I race after her. We're just coming up to her door and I can see her slowing down but I don't have enough time to stop.
"Shit B, you okay?"
I ask looking at her, checking her over for damage. I don't tend to be able to stop quickly when I'm running. She's giggling now and I'm curious as to what's funny.
"Note our positions Faith. Does it look like it'd bother me?"
I look at what she's getting at and realise I've got her pushed up against the door and one of my legs is inbetween hers. I look back up at her grinning and kiss her deeply, sliding my hands down her body before pulling away.
"You got the keys? Cus I was hoping for some chocolate."
She rolls her eyes at me and turns around to the face the door, pulling out her keys.
"You're gonna have to keep waiting for that hot chocolate unless you wanna stand back and let me open the door Faith."
"Sorry, just appreciating your ass."
I step back and watch her as she opens the door. I gotta say she's beautiful, I mean everything about her is just perfect, the way her hair settles when she's been running, the way she walks and talks and the way she's got a look on her face wondering why I'm staring at her.
"Gonna invite me in?"
"Why you're not a vamp are you?"
I walk in to proove my point of not being a vampire and turn around to face her pulling her inside and shutting the door before leaning over and whispering huskily in her ear.
"No but I do like to bite, just not hard enough to draw blood."
She's got that flushed look again and clears her throat, presumably to talk.
She's getting me all worked up again and I know if I don't do something now then I'm never gonna get round to my hot chocolate, though I'm sure me and Faith could warm up in other ways. She pulled back and is grinning at me now, I guess trying to work out what I'm thinking.
"Come on, let's get that hot chocolate."
"Uh, yeah sure sounds like a good, great idea."
"When'd you go all Willow on me, B?"
She's got me babbling now. I swear she gets a kick out of winding me up and then making me wait again. Well let's just say, payback's gonna be a bitch.
"Wanna drink it in here or in front of the tv or in my room or..."
"B, stop with the babbling already."
She's standing infront of me now with a smirk on her face and I realise I've done it again. Well at least we've got our hot chocolates now.
"We can go to your room B, put some music on and do the chilling out thing."
"Sure."
I walk up the stairs before, just cus I could see the glint she had in her eyes when she said about the chilling out thing. I'm pretty sure chilling wasn't what she had in mind and I'm sure it's not what I had in mind either. I'm half way up the stairs when I realise I can't hear any footsteps behind me.
"Faith?"
She's staring right at my ass so I give it a little wiggle in an exaggerated fashion which earns a full out grin from her before I climb the rest of the stairs and duck into my bedroom.
"Was just watching your ass for you B. Ya know, just in case you tripped over your tongue from all the babbling."
I gotta admit, I never thought I'd be using the word cute in a sentance but here I am using it again. B's gotta the cutest smile on her face and she's blushing. Guess I'm getting good at doing that to her. I walk into the room and she's already sitting on her bed, sipping her hot chocolate and smiling at me.
"Whatcha thinking B?"
I drink some of my own drink and watch as she licks some of hers off her lips, she really shouldn't do that around me.
"Thinking how lucky I am."
"Lucky for what?"
I ask her taking another sip of my drink and then placing it on the table next to her bed.
"Lucky for having you as my girlfriend."
I grin at her, it sounds really good her saying that. I'm Buffy's girlfriend, yeah it sounds good. But she's not the lucky one, I am. I sit next to her on the bed and lean back on the pillow, putting my head down.
"You're not the lucky one though girlfriend, I am. Well apart from the kissing, guess you're lucky there that I can teach you a few things."
I glance over at her smirking before she pounced on top of me tiggling my sides. I don't think I've laughed this much, add to the fact that I'm not a tigglish person, I don't know how she does it. I'm still laughing and suddenly she stops tiggling me and looks at me. She's got the sweetest smile but it's brighter than anything, it could melt me right here.
"Guess I'll have to get some practise in to be as good a kisser as you then."
She licks her lip and leans down, slowly pressing her mouth to mine. It's the softest kiss but it brings back the desire inside me and I moan, wrapping my arms around her neck and bringing her closer to me.
Guess I'm a better kisser than Faith likes to admit. I've only just put my lips to hers and she's moaning underneath me. That's another thing. I'm lying flat out on top of her, not that I mind but I'm damn glad my mom's at an art thing cause I wouldn't want anything interrupting this. I pull away from Faith, leaning on my elbows to look at her.
"Mark out of ten?"
She bursts out laughing and then gets a mischievous grin on her face.
"I'm not sure, guess you're gonna have to kiss me again just to make sure I don't get the wrong mark."
"I think I can deal with that."
I lean down to kiss her before hearing a knock at the front door. Both me and Faith groan loudly, things were gonna get interesting and someone's interrupting us. I look down at her and kiss her quickly before standing up and fixing my clothes.
"C'mon you, don't just lay there."
"I swear to god, if whoever at the door doesn't have a damn good reason for interrupting us I might just kick their ass."
I laugh lightly and run downstairs opening the door.
"Hey!"
"Hey Buff stuff, where's Faith?"
Oh god, Faith's gonna kick their asses. It's Willow, Oz, Cordelia and Xander.
"Erm hey guys, any particular reason for calling round?"
Faith walks down the stairs behind me and leans against the wall looking at them just before Cordelia walks in and straight through to the tv room.
"Well we thought to celebrate you and Faith being a couple we'd watch videos, order pizza and hang out together."
Xander. Typical.
"Come in then, not like you're vamps and need inviting. Go in through with Cordy, be there in a minute."
They go walking through and I walk over to Faith who's wearing a less than happy face. I wrap my arms around her waist and hug her tightly, leaning up to whisper in her ear.
"Later. I promise."
Damn scoobies. Why the hell do we have to celebrate me and B going out? I mean we do cus it's good but right now? Right now I wanted to be upstairs with Buffy...with her laying on top of me like she was and me running my hands down....okay stop that thought! I have to get through this and then we can get back to what we were doing, she promised after all.
"Pizza'll be twenty minutes Buff, in the meantime, be host like? You and Faith go make drinks and popcorn?"
Xander says chucking a bag of microwave popcorn my way. I hope B knows how to make this stuff cus I sure as hell don't. Never used a microwave before.
"Xand, put the vid on and you guys chill, me and B'll do the rest."
I say winking at B and grabbing her hand, pulling her through into the kitchen.
"God! Did they have to turn up?"
B exclaims as we walk into the kitchen. Guess she's feeling the need just as much as me. I chuck the popcorn at her and she shoves it in the microwave before hopping up on the counter. Perfect opportunity. I walk up to her and slide inbetween her legs, holding her round the waist as I slowly grind my hips against hers.
"You know it's a shame the scoobs turned up B. I had some plans of what I wanted to do to you."
I look up at her, smirking. The effect it's having on her is clear cus she's biting down on her lip and I can hear her moaning softly. I lean up, catching her lip and sucking on it gently before pulling her down to whisper huskily in her ear.
"Don't you wanna know what I wanna do to you?"
"Faith...not here, the gang...I urm yeah."
I lean up kissing her deeply and running my hands through her hair. I can feel her hands moving down my back and then under my shirt. *SMASH* What the fuck? I disentangle myself from Buffy and turn around.
"Hey there Red."
I can't exactly think properly. Faith's rubbing against me, grinding her hips against mine and all I can think about is what we would've been doing if the gang hadn't interrupted. She sucks gently on my lip and it sends shivers up my spine in anticipation, I can't wait till they leave.
"Don't you wanna know what I wanna do to you?"
More than anything, but I'd rather she showed me. My heart's racing and I know she's loving this, the effect it's having on me but I can't help it. I want her and I want her right now, I don't care about the gang being there or not.
"Faith...not here, the gang...I urm yeah."
Maybe I do, a little. I'm not an exhibitionist but the heat is literally rising off our bodies and if I don't do something soon I'm gonna pop. Faith's mouth on mine, her tongue in my mouth and her hands through my hair, that's all I can focus on right now. I move my hands slowly down her back and then run my fingers underneath her shirt. *Smash* Oh shit.
"Hey there Red."
I laugh silently. I've gotta give it to Faith, I wouldn't have been able to say anything.
"Will, hey, hi. Erm we were." *Bing* "Popcorn's done, we'll bring it right through."
Faith bursts out laughing as soon as a shocked Will makes her way out the kitchen.
"Popcorn's done?"
"It was all I could think of! Besides, thank god that the microwave bing-ed. I didn't know what to say"
She smirks at me and I grab a bowl to put the popcorn in.
"Faith, seeing as you were supposed to be helping me, grab the pepsi and dr.pepper out the fridge and grab some cups from the cupboard."
"Yeah I got it. Want me to take them through?"
"Yeah that'd be great."
I look down and fix my shirt, trying to look as natural as possible before grabbing the bowl again and walking back in to join the gang.
Damn that was funny. Okay so it was annoying as well because I would've loved to have seen how far I could've taken that without the gang knowing but the expression on Red's face was priceless. I've got all the drink out and poured some for me and B, so now I'm just sitting on the couch waiting for her. As it goes, Oz and Willow are laying on the floor, Cordy and Xander are all cosy on the 3 piece couch and I'm just sitting waiting.
"Erm hi guys. Sorry it took so long, the popcorn wasn't cooking right for some reason."
I look at Red and she's gone completely pale again and B's looking flustered. I can't help but grin, as frustrated as I am, this is a blast. B walks over giving me a look as if to say 'not one word' but I can't help it. I give her a grin and open my arms out to her. She sits down on my lap and leans back and I can immediately feel her muscles start to relax.
"So what video d'ya get Xander?"
B asks Xander. I can't believe we actually have to sit here and watch this. I guess I should make nice with her friends though, you know considering she is my girlfriend now and these are her closest friends.
"American Pie, what'd you think of my choice? Good right?"
"Erm Xand, you actually watched it before? Have any of you guys seen it?"
"No, why?"
"Oh nothing, you guys'll love it."
I can't keep the smirk off my face. They haven't seen it? Perfect. Only disturbing factor is the chic out of it, the one with the flute, she kinda looks like Red.
"Erm okay then. Thanx Faith. Everyone comfy?"
B wriggles about on my lap a little and then holds my hands that are round her waist.
"Yep. I'm comfy."
"Yeah as comfy as we're able to get infront of them."
I mumble to her. She turns round and throws me a look, then twists round on my lap, beckoning me to lean forward so she can talk to me.
"What's up B?"
"Don't make any comments. I'm just about ready to pop as it is."
I grin widely and lick my lip. This flick's definitely one to watch, wonder if it'll get her going, cus I just can't wait till the scoobies go. I press my lips to hers briefly and then whisper huskily in her ear.
"Don't worry about it B. It gets too much for you and I don't mind an audience."
She bursts out laughing and as I glance over her shoulder, I notice 4 heads turn back towards the screen.
Faith and her damn comments! As much as we shouldn't have been doing it, I'm still just about ready to kill Will for walking in on us. Too many interruptions and not enough Faith time. Xander's chosen 'American Pie' to watch and for some reason Faith finds it funny, not sure why, guess we'll have to watch to find out.
"Erm okay then. Thanx Faith. Everyone comfy?"
I wriggle about on her lap a little just to make myself more comfy and yeah well I guess to get a little more contact.
"Yep. I'm comfy."
"Yeah as comfy as we're able to get infront of them."
Ah goddamit! She knows how worked up I got and reminding me of what I want to be doing and can't be doing right now just makes me even more frustrated. I twist round on her lap and get her to lean forward so I can talk to her.
"What's up B?"
"Don't make any comments. I'm just about ready to pop as it is."
She grins at me again and seductively runs her tongue along her lips. She's really enjoying teasing me. She quickly presses her lips to mine and then whispers in my ear, in that sexy husky voice of hers.
"Don't worry about it B. It gets too much for you and I don't mind an audience."
I think I've just gone about ten shades more red than Willow's hair. Jeez, did she really have to offer to help out? I'm so gonna get her back for this. I shoot her a look and then twist around again so I'm facing the tv.
"Ready. Let the movie roll."
I lean back on her lap again, glancing around the room. Oz is laying back and Will's resting her head on his chest. They look cute together. Then there's Xander and Cordy on the couch. I smirk a little. Mr. Suave also known as Xander just yawned and put his arm round her. Ah well. Then there's me and Faith.
[ 'Oooh, yeah. Oh, baby, you're so good. ' ]
A porno?! Xander rented out a porno?! I can feel Faith giggling and I look over where Willow's gone bright red and Xander is looking like he's about to faint. Oh it just gets better, there's now a highschool kid watching a porno and making comments.
"Erm Xander? What is this film?"
"It's a comedy! The back of the case said it was a comedy! The guy in the store, he said, he was saying, he was explaining how it was funny, a comedy!"
"Chill Xand, just keep watching."
Why does it not surprise me that Faith likes this film.
"It's not a porno baby, it is actually a comedy and no it does nothing for me. You on the other hand, make me need a shower every five minutes."
She whispers in my ear. Okay so the redness from seeing the film is now replaced by thinking of what Faith's actually doing in the shower. The shower that she has to take from thinking of me.
[ 'Hey, Jimmy. I just wanted to say sweet dreams.' ]
I burst out laughing. The guy just had to cover himself with a pillow and his mom's just walked into the room.
"Yeah. I see the comedy bit now Xander."
Xander look visibly relieved and Will's finally removed her eyes from staring at the ceiling. Oz's expression didn't actually change at all during this so I have no idea what he's thinking and Cordy just scoffs.
"Yeah well it could've been a porno. They always have cheesy fake Christina Arguilera type girls making stupid sex noises like that."
"How'd you know Cordy."
Trust Cordy to critise something like that and yeah, trust Faith to question how she knows. Cordy shoots Faith a look and Xander just looks puzzled.
...to be continued...