'Tis The Season...Whatever That Means...
by Saz
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: BtVS...yada yada...Joss Whedon...
Fox yada yada...UPN... you know the drill.
Song lyrics and the fic title belong to
Frog in a Sock.
Spoilers: Anything ever screened is fair game.
Author's Notes: Uh, this just sort of popped into
my head. Even though I'm in total "bah humbug" mode,
I can't resist a romantic fic. Kind of set several
years from now. Eventual b/f pairing, who knows who
else once I'm done playing :) And I WILL finish this
fic! LOL ~ ~ denotes lyrics. // // denotes thoughts. *** denotes scene change.
Thanks to Philip for beta reading this.
Dedication: To the OTBNF gang :) Cos I love you all heh.
Feedback: If you like it, I like the feedback.
~She's got perfect hair and eyes I could sink into Snow white skin, red lips not thin She looks like God's greatest gift to you She's got sexy legs You want to scratch her like a seven year itch Too bad, yeah too bad Too bad she's a fucking bitch~
Buffy let herself into the house, dumped all of her shopping at the front door, and headed straight for the bottle of vodka she had stashed in the back of a cupboard in the kitchen. She opened it and quickly took a mouthful, wincing as it burned all the way down.
//Gotta be my lucky day// thought Buffy wistfully. //Not only do I have the misfortune to date the most fucked up bitch on the hellmouth, but she dumps me, and abuses me in public. Merry Christmas, baby// Buffy strolled into the loungeroom and took a seat on the couch. She took another swig of the vodka and sank back in the sofa, closing her eyes.
She wasn't public about her sexuality by any means, and was firmly entrenched in the closet, happy to be there. However, Buffy had finally admitted to herself she was gay a few years back. After easing herself into the 'scene' she met Julia, and quickly fell in love with her. Buffy eventually discovered that Josie was cheating on her with about the entire Southern Californian lesbian population. Julia promptly dumped her, right before her birthday.
To make matters worse, it seemed that over the past few years that the Scooby gang had grown apart. Willow and Tara were travelling the world, making connections in the wiccan world for the inevitable apocalypse that would occur again. Xander and Anya had moved to LA where Xander was working in construction, and Anya was begging Xander for more children. Dawn was studying at UCSD, living on campus, and rarely returned home to visit Buffy. Giles was back in England, getting chummy with the Watcher's council again. And of course, Wesley, Cordelia and Angel were in LA. //And Faith...// But Buffy quickly clamped down on that thought.
Buffy had decided to invite the gang over for Christmas, a big Scooby Gang reunion. She'd been out doing some last minute shopping when she'd run into Josie, who'd abused her in public, in front of what seemed to be everyone in Sunnydale. Buffy had quickly fled.
//Enough moping, Buffy, get organised because your guests will be here soon// She stood and put the lid back on the bottle of vodka, and headed back to the kitchen to hide it again. //Speaking of which, where the hell is Dawn? She's supposed to be helping me...// At that moment, the front doorbell rang.
"Dawn, if you've forgotten the..." Buffy trailed off as she opened the door to see who was there.
"Uh, hey B."
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to Garbage.
Dedication: To the Purplegirl group. You guys are some
wicked fun :D And for the participants in my latest dreams ;)
~Coughing up feeling just for you To find something real to hold on to But there is a hole inside my heart Where waves of my love come tumbling out. You say that all the good is gone That I have forgotten who I am Free as a bird Wild as the wind But somehow I cannot let you in~
//Oh shit...oh fuck...she's just gonna...//
"Come in, Faith..."
//...invite me in? Jeez Faith, get you ass in there before she slams the door in your face for real...//
"Uh thanks, B." Buffy stood aside and let Faith in. Faith entered, unsure of herself and as nervous as all hell. Buffy picked this up, and was kind of surprised, but didn't say a word.
"Um...you..want a drink or something?"
"Nah, thanks B. I'm five by five" Buffy's mouth slowly spread into a small smile at hearing that phrase once more.
"So, what brings you here, 'F'?" Faith looked into Buffy's eyes and she grinned a patented Faith grin.
"You know me B, party happens, I'm there," Buffy gave Faith an incredulous look before Faith smiled. "No, Angel mentioned you were having a get together. I figured it easier to apologise to everyone if they were all gonna be in the one place."
"Apologise?"
"You know B, the 'I'm sorry I sided with evil and tried to kill you all' speech." Buffy raised an eyebrow, and turned away, walking off into the kitchen, leaving Faith standing in the entryway. Faith followed, unsure as what was going on. She walked into the kitchen to find Buffy pacing around.
"B?" Buffy whirled around to face Faith, obviously angry.
"Is this some sick kind of sick joke Faith? Is it?"
"Uh..."
"Because, here you are, coming to trash MY party, nonetheless, when you could have picked any other day in the past few years to show up and..."
"B?"
"...here you are, just coming to..."
"B..."
"...ruin my night and since when..."
"B!"
"What?!"
"I'm sorry B. For everything... I'm so sorry." Buffy's resolve face crumbled, and she began to cry.
"It's just I thought we were becoming close, and then you just closed up and wouldn't talk to me. It really hurt. Then you told Giles I killed him, and that hurt even more. I mean... I thought...I started to...where were you? I needed you. I *died* Faith...I was alone..." Faith stepped over to Buffy and put her hands on Buffy's shoulders.
"Shh...B, it's going to be ok." Buffy threw her arms around Faith and sobbed into her shoulder.
"I missed you Faith..." Faith took one look at the once-tough-now-broken Slayer in her arms and her heart broke.
"I...I missed you too B. I missed you too."
PART 3 - Not Afraid Of Romance
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to
Machine Gun Fellatio.
Dedication: To the girl I'm falling in love with who
barely acknowledges my existance. Not that she'll read
this, but oh well. And Alicia Keys for writing such
fantastic songs.
~When the sunshine hits your eyes You'll find me there And I'm not afraid of romance. Although you've just arrived to crash my life Your smile is saying something that i like You're not afraid of romance~
Buffy pulled away to look into Faith's eyes. She stared into the depths of her beautiful brown eyes.
//How can I tell her that I'm falling for her all over again. Not that she knew that I fell for her in the first place. Hell, how do I tell her I'm interested in her in that way...?//
"...B? Still there? Earth to Buffy?" Buffy smiled.
"'Buffy'?" She looked at Faith, amused. Faith looked at the ground, blushing.
"Yeah well, you know...being your name, and all...I just, well..." Buffy cupped Faith's face in her hands and raised Faith's face so she could look into those deep chocolate eyes.
"Faith, it's ok. Unusual, but ok." Buffy smiled at Faith. "Come into the lounge, Faith. Would you like a drink or something?"
"No thanks, B. I'm Five by five." Buffy smirked, took Faith's hand and led her into the lounge. Faith wondered at the feel of having Buffy's hand in her own. They reached the lounge, and sat down on the sofa beside each other.
//Ok, Faith. You can do this, tell her!// Faith turned to Buffy, but before she could get a word out, Buffy jumped Faith and softly kissed her, whilst running a hand through her hair. After a few seconds, Buffy pulled away, and looked at Faith to see her reaction, while nervously biting on her lip.
"Uh...B...I..." //Way to express your feelings, Faith, get with it!//
"Oh, God, I'm sorry Faith, I shouldn't have..." Buffy jumped up mid-sentence and ran upstairs to her bedroom, leaving Faith sitting on the sofa, shocked and once again confused as to what was happening.
//Way to freak the girl out, Faith. Get your ass up there and sort this out, before it's too late!//
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to
Jill Sobule.
Dedication: Morgan Lander, of KITTIE fame, for
being one of music's most kick-ass chicks. And
for being my idol. And a big hooray for crispy
M&M's cos they rule. (Yes I'm strange.)
~I kissed a girl Her lips were sweet She was just like kissing me I kissed a girl Won't change the world But I'm so glad I kissed a girl~
"B?"
*sniff* "Go away," *sniff* "Leave me alone."
"B...please...can I come in? I'll be quick... I need to tell you something." Faith waited a few seconds, and was about to walk off when the door opened. Buffy stood in the doorway, leaning on the doorframe, tears streaming down her face and her eyes puffy and bloodshot.
//God. She's still beautiful.//
*sniff* "Yes, Faith?" Faith grinned her patented wicked grin and placed her hands on either side of the doorframe, and leant in, kissing Buffy gently. After several pleasurable seconds, she pulled away and smirked at Buffy, who was opening and closing her mouth in a similar fashion to a goldfish out of water.
"Sorry about before, B, you just shocked me is all. I love you, Buffy, I always have. Just wanted you to know that. I'm sorry, I'm gonna go now." She turned and got several steps down the hall before Buffy regained some composure.
"Faith. Wait. Stop. Come back, please." Faith turned around and walked back to Buffy's doorway. Buffy grabbed the front of Faith's shirt and pulled her in for a kiss. Faith gently ran her tongue over Buffy's lips, and Buffy allowed Faith to deepen the kiss. Buffy's arms wrapped around Faith's waist and they staggered backwards, falling back onto Buffy's bed. Faith broke the kiss and pulled back to look at Buffy.
"B?"
"Yeah?"
"Uh...you...sure...I mean...you want to do this?"
"Yes. I've waited so long for this, Faith."
"Me too, Buffy. I love you."
"I love you too Faith. Ever since I first laid eyes on you." Buffy leaned in and captured Faith's lips with her own, savoring the moment between them.
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to
Alicia Keys.
Dedication: To my "boo". For being the funny, charming,
sexy, yet totally annoying girl that I love. You crack
me up, Boo.
~If I gave you forever Would you take care of me? Would you take me For granted On the way Those wonderful things That you do They got me feelin' In love with you In love with you That loving you is easy Comes so naturally Loving you is easy Comes so naturally~
Buffy and Faith were busy making out on the bed, hands all over each other, when they were most inconveniently interrupted.
"Buffy? You here?"
//SHIT! Dawn...// Buffy and Faith sat bolt upright on the bed, quickly tidied themselves up and arrived at Buffy's door just in time to meet Dawn.
"Buffy...FAITH!" Dawn shoved Buffy out of the way and latched on to Faith, wrapping her arms around her, smothering her with a bear hug.
"Great to see you too, Dawnie...uh...let go?" Dawn chuckled and let go of Faith.
"Sorry, but I just haven't seen you in ages and I missed you. So glad you're back for the party. You are back for the party, right? 'Cause, I mean, if you want to that is..."
"Is this babbling a family thing? 'Cause, jeez..." Faith simultaneously recieved half hearted slaps from both Buffy and Dawn. "Okay, okay. Come on, you guys have a party to get ready. Let me give you a hand." Dawn went downstairs, followed closely by Buffy and Faith. Faith got to the bottom of the stairs, grabbed Buffy's waist and pulled her in close.
"I'll finish what I started later..." and purred in Buffy's ear before heading off in the direction of the kitchen, leaving Buffy more aroused and excited than ever.
Just at that moment, the doorbell rang. Buffy walked over and opened it, to find Tara standing there.
"Hi Buffy, um, Willow's just getting the last of the stuff out of the car." Buffy smiled.
"Good to see you Tara, come in. Uh, the presents can go under the tree in the lounge. And...oh hi Will." Willow stopped in the doorway and grinned.
"Hey Buff. Uh, I'd give you a hug...but armfuls of bags and stuff...say, are you okay? You look...kinda flushed." Buffy turned several shades more red due to embarassment, and looked at the floor.
"Yeah, fine Will." She looked back up at Willow. "You guys are in the guest room, put your bags there. You know where it is."
"Sure Buff. Sorry about...the surprising earliness and all, but we just wanted to give you a hand and all." Buffy smiled.
"Thanks, Will. Put your stuff away and I'll meet you in the kitchen. We've got so much to catch up on!" Buffy walked back into the kitchen, leaving Willow standing in the entryway, when Tara returned from the lounge.
"Do you think we should tell her?"
"I don't know, Will. I don't know. It's up to you."
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to
Korn.
Dedication: To Phil, for suggesting I release a
soundtrack when I'm done writing this thing. A
good idea, for sure :) Cos I just love all these
songs. Hence me owning copies of them heh.
~I am watching the rise and fall of my salvation There's so much much shit around me Such a lack of compassion I thought it would be fun and games (it would be fun and games) Instead it's all the same (it's all the same) I want something to do Need to feel sickness In You I feel the reason, as it's leaving me No, not again It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling The flesh made me bad~
Faith watched Buffy walk into the kitchen, a small smile creeping across her face as she watched Buffy's hips sway as she walked, the way her...
"...Faith?"
"What?"
"I said, can you give me a hand with this salad?"
"Uh...sure Dawn..." Faith absentmindedly picked a knife up and began cutting up vegetables, not really paying attention to what she was doing. She kept glancing back to Buffy, watching as she bent over to retrieve something from the back of the refrigerator. Suddenly, Faith couldn't stand it any longer.
"Uh, Buffy, can I speak to you for a moment? Upstairs. In private." Buffy turned around and looked up to take in the look of extreme lust in Faith's eyes.
"Uh, yeah, sure." Faith and Buffy quickly left the room as Willow and Tara walked in. "Oh, be right back, Will." Willow and Tara exchanged glances and then looked at Dawn.
"What was that?" Dawn glanced up at the women in front of her.
"That? Oh." Dawn shrugged, before looking down at her knife and chopping board again. "They're just going to have sex."
"WHAT?!" Dawn glanced back up at Tara and Willow, who were staring at her with mouths wide open in shock.
"Oh, I interrputed them before. I arrived home, and went looking for Buffy upstairs. Heard some hot 'n' heavy sounds coming from her room, so I walked back down the hall and made some noise, like I was looking for her. I was surprised to see her walk out of the room with Faith, but hey. It happens."
Faith walked into Buffy's room as Buffy quickly turned around and locked her door. The moment she turned back to Faith, Faith was all over her, pinning her against the door. Faith held Buffy's wrists above her head, and roughly kissed her. Buffy moaned into the kiss, and more than willingly returned it. Faith suddenly pulled away to look at Buffy with a strange look in her eyes.
"Beg me for it..." She gently laid several kisses along Buffy's neck and collarbone.
"What?" Faith pulled away and looked into Buffy's eyes again.
"You heard. Beg me for it." Faith smirked, released one of Buffy's hands and cupped Buffy's crotch through her jeans, rubbing softly. Buffy shifted to allow more contact, and moaned, when Faith stopped moving. "Beg me for it."
"Faith...no way."
"Seeya later then." With that, Faith released Buffy and unlocked the door. Buffy stood back and allowed Faith to walk out of the room, confused as all hell.
//What the fuck was all that about?//
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to Nirvana.
~I like it-I'm not gonna crack I miss you-I'm not gonna crack I love you-I'm not gonna crack I love you-I'm not gonna crack I like it-I'm not gonna crack I miss you-I'm not gonna crack I love you-I'm not gonna crack I kill you-I'm not gonna crack~
Faith locked herself in the bathroom and filled the sink with cold water.
//What the fuck was that all about?//
Faith splashed some cold water over her face, and looked up into the mirror, watching the beads of water slowly run down her face and into the sink.
//What, are you trying to scare her off again?//
//Not exactly. But you enjoyed it.//
Faith stared into the mirror, blinking away the water.
"I enjoyed it..."
"Okay you two, enough with the goldfish impressions, out with it!" Dawn watched as Willow and Tara snapped from the shocked silence.
"They're sleeping together? Since when? Since when did Buffy change teams and not tell her best friend?"
"Since...we haven't exactly been contactable, sweetie."
"Oh. Well...that...yeah." Willow looked to Tara and smiled. She then turned to Dawn and smiled sheepishly. "You have any idea how long this has been going on?" Dawn glanced up at Willow and Tara once more.
"No. Now are you going to help me, or do I have to kick you out of the kitchen so I can get this stuff done?"
Buffy sat on the end of her bed, staring at the partially open door.
//My God. She's breaking again.//
Buffy stood, and walked out into the hall, determined to find Faith and talk to her. It was then she heard someone in the bathroom, talking.
"Faith? That you in there?"
"Huh? Oh, yeah, just a sec, B." Buffy heard some sounds of movement, and suddenly the bathroom door opened. Faith stood in the doorway, brandishing THAT knife.
"Here, B. It's your turn..."
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to Korn.
Dedication: To the wonderful management team at KFC
Bendigo for making me work on New Year's. Works
wonders for one's social life. Not to mention my
health and sanity.
~Am I going crazy? Am I insane and dazed? Am I too lost to face it? And what will it cost To escape? Nothing is right I'm so scared~
"AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" The three women in the kitchen looked up in the direction of the upstairs bathroom.
"Oh God, Buffy!" Dawn dropped her knife and ran towards her sister, Willow and Tara closely in tow.
"I'm gonna kill her..."
"Calm down Willow..."
"I AM CALM!"
//What the hell...?//
"Buffy?"
"GET AWAY FROM ME!"
//Ooookay..what just happened there?//
Suddenly Dawn, Willow and Tara arrived on the scene, Tara physically restraining Willow. Faith looked to them, the pain obvious in her eyes.
"I don't know...I opened the door and...she just broke..." Everyone glanced at Buffy, who had collapsed to the floor, and was curled up into a ball, sobbing.
"Buffy?" Dawn crouched down and approached Buffy slowly, her voice low and gentle.
"GET AWAY FROM ME! I DIDN'T MEAN TO...PLEASE!!!" Dawn jumped back like she'd been bitten. She went to Faith's side and hugged her, sobbing silently into Faith's shoulder. Willow crouched beside Buffy and stroked her head lovingly.
"Buffy? It's Willow." A small glimmer of recognition was visible in Buffy's eyes as she glanced up to look at Willow.
"Wills? Help me...she...knife...returning..." Buffy began to cry once again. Willow stood and glared at Faith.
"Knife?" Faith paled visibly, but stood her ground against the Wicca.
"I don't know...she just went nuts and was babbling about the knife, and 'don't hurt me' and all this other stuff I didn't catch...I swear, I'd never hurt her. I..." Faith looked to the ground, trying not to cry. "...I love her."
"I know. Maybe...maybe she needs some time. I don't think she dealt with that whole...incident. Tara, help me move her into her room?" With that, Willow and Tara carried Buffy off to her bedroom, Dawn close behind them.
Faith stared after them, longing to be with Buffy, but afraid of scaring her once more. She stood in the hallway, tears flowing freely down her face.
//I love you, Buffy Summers. Wherever you are.//
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to Korn.
Dedication: To the
OTBNF gang...just cos I love you all.
Okay, yes, it's a shameless promotion. But we're fun!
~They say this thing inside me Wants to get out All it does is scream and shout I'm trying not to let them out They tell me to hurt myself But I'm not gonna listen~
//What?//
<I said, it's your turn, B>
//No, Faith, please...//
<What, so it's perfectly fine for you to gut me, but I can't give some back?>
//I'm sorry, Faith, I didn't want to...didn't mean to...//
<B, B, B...come on, play fair>
//Faith, please...I'm sorry...I love you...//
<Little late for the last ditch effort, B. Nice try though>
"AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"
//nononoshe'sgonnagetmeandshe'sgonnastabmeandgutmeand i'mnotgonnabeabletostopherthistimeanditwillbeallmyfault...//
"Buffy? It's Willow."
//Willow? She can help me...help me fight...//
"Wills? Help me...she...knife...returning..."
//allmyfaultallmyfaultallmyfaultallmyfault allmyfaultallmyfaultallmyfaultallmyfault...//
<It's my turn now, B...my turn now>
"What can we do? Can you help her, Willow?"
"I'm sorry Dawn, there's nothing we can do. She has to sort out her own inner demons."
"Willow, sweetie, I'm going to go check up on Faith..."
"Ok Tara, I'll be here."
<It's my turn now...>
PART 10 - Let's Get This Party Started
Disclaimer: Song lyrics and the fic title belong to Korn.
Dedication: To Korn...for some of the most awesome
lyrics that give me crazy fic ideas.
~Sometimes I wish I could be strong like you It doesn't matter Each time I wake I'm somehow feeling the truth I can't handle Let's get this party started I'm sick of begging you You make me feel insane Which I did to you Let's get this party started You make me feel insane I want to be the one To make myself sign~
BUFFY'S POV
It's dark, and I don't know where I am. Oh, in my head. Great. Just what I need, to spend some quality time here.
There's a shadowy figure approaching me, I can barely make it out.
Oh God, I'd know that swagger anywhere.
Faith.
"Hey, B. Ready to motor? Give us a kiss then..."
With that she dives at me, and...
Knife...stomach...pain...blacking out...
"I love you, Faith..."
It's dark, and I don't know where I am. Oh, in my head. Great. Just what I need, to spend some more quality time here.
There's a shadowy figure approaching me, I can barely make it out.
Oh God, I'd know that swagger anywhere.
Faith.
Strange sense of deja vu.
"Hey, B. Ready to motor? Give us a kiss then..."
With that she dives at me, and...
Knife...stomach...pain...blacking out...
"I love you, Faith..."
It's dark, and I don't know where I am. Oh, in my head. Great. Just what I need, to spend some quality time here.
There's a shadowy figure approaching me, I can barely make it out.
Oh God, I'd know that swagger anywhere.
Faith.
"Hey, B. Ready to motor? Give us a kiss then..."
I'm ready.
With that she dives at me, and...
"No!"
I hold my hand out, and the knife in her hand shimmers, then disappears.
Faith lands on me, and we both hit the ground in a heap. I take her wrists in my hands and look into her eyes.
"Faith, I love you. I don't want to play this game anymore...I forgive you. Forgive me?"
Hey...who turned on the lights...so bright...what the...?
...to be continued...