Don't Let Go
by Slayer125
Rating: R
Disclaimer: The girls belong to Joss and Mutant Enemy.
"Death." One word changes everything, whether it is your own or somebody you love.
I have danced with death so many times, even died twice. Is this the last time? I look into the blanket of stars in the sky; a light mist is covering my face. Could it be the Angels are crying for me? The blood is everywhere, leaking from my body slowly. It is so cold, I don't wanna die. I know when I came back it was what I dreamed of but that was before, before she loved me. As my life slowly ebbs away I remember the day she came to me pledging undying love.
That causes a bitter laugh to erupt into the darkness. Undying love, yet here I am slowly losing my grip on this world that I once loved. I can hear her voice as she came to me that day months ago. The night fades from my sight as I remember the sun shining, reflecting highlights off her hair.
She looked so nervous that day and I wanted to soothe her. "You ok Faith?"
"5 by 5, B. Just doing some thinking."
"About?"
She looked at me as if memorizing every detail of my face; I know I used to do the same thing to her. "Robin asked me if I wanted to move to New York." I had felt my heart drop that night, we had been through so much and it seemed that maybe there was a chance for us to be ….friends.
I constantly tried to convince myself that we were friends, and I didn't love her. My heart never listened though; it broke with every hateful word we ever said to each other.
"B?" She wanted to know what I thought about her leaving. I wanted to be strong and let her be free but the thought of an eternity without her hurt.
"What do you want to do Faith?" I asked and noticed a slight hesitation.
"I would miss you all so much and …I."
"I love you Faith." I whispered quietly stepping away afraid of the rejection that I would soon face but I was shocked to see her smile at me.
"About time Slayer." She had whispered as she took me in her arms and we kissed. Angel and I had kissed but this was the meeting of souls. I felt her breath mingle with mine and the aroma of leather had tantalized my senses as Faith's fingers wound in my hair. I could feel her push me up against the wall and the feel of fingers moving under my shirt.
I wrapped my legs around her and could feel her hipbone pushing into my wet pussy. She whimpered and carried me to the alley where we positioned ourselves behind the dumpster and made love for an hour at least. The feel of her fingers buried deep inside of me were so much better than I ever fantasised about. I am pulled back to reality as I hear Faith and Willow vaguely. That's kinda strange considering they are above me both crying.
"Don't cry" I whisper but I can't hear myself at all.
"You'll be ok B." She pushes her jacket onto the gaping hole in my stomach making me scream out in pain.
"Don't die Buffy." Willow is pushing my hair out of my face and talking on the phone. Soon there are sirens and red lights flashing around me sillouhetting my love's features.
She is so strong I think to myself as they load me onto the gurney, I don't wanna leave this..please..I can't leave. I pray that Willow and Faith hold onto my hand, maybe I can stay and love Faith forever…It hurts so bad…No…Don't let go Faith….No….