Waiting for the End
by Slayer125
Rating: R
Disclaimer: They belong to J man and Mutant Enemy.
Dedication: To my feedback gang. Thanks and to my Angel for being there.
"Buffy something is not right here. It's too quite." Faith whispered.
This was the third night they had been patrolling and there was not a creature that was yet to show themselves. "This is a busy time of year ya know B. It is never this quite." Buffy shuddered and said "I know Faith." It was almost black outside with very little moonlight. They walked around three freshly dug graves and there was no sign of any commotion there. Buffy turned to Faith and said "Looks like we can call it a night baby."
Buffy pulled Faith into her arms for a kiss when she felt Faith go limp in her arms. When she laid Faith on the ground she noticed the blood that covered her hands and she whispered "dear god." "God has nothing to do with it lover." Buffy felt coldness seep through her body at the sound of that voice. "Angelus, what are you doing here? Where is Angel?"
"Now lover why the cold shoulder. Surely you have missed me. Angel is just a weak little boy who has nothing to offer. And what is up with the new edition. Was Angel so bad you had to go to the other team, hunh, lover."
"If Angel was that bad in bed then so were you lover. She has something none of you will ever have. She has a heart, emotions, love. She would not hurt me and she loves to be by my side and share in my emotions. She loves to hold me when I sleep and watch me when she thinks I don't know it. Let me go so I can take care of her please." Buffy had tears rolling down her face as she said "Please, I know you have some kind of feeling in that cold heart of yours. I can't lose her."
Angelus laughed and said "go but we are not finished yet lover and before we are you will not have anything left but me."
Buffy did not respond she just picked Faith's cold and lifeless body in her arms and ran with her to the hospital. Buffy looked down at Faith as she ran and saw the blood dripping out of the corner of her mouth. Her raven hair was falling off of her forehead and she was so pale that Buffy would swear she was dead.
Buffy tripped over a piece of wood and fell landing on top of Faith. "God no. Faith." She screamed. There was no pulse. "Faith baby come on I love you. You often asked if I was scared of anything and I always told you no. But Faith I am. I am scared of being without you. Please Faith don't leave me…I..can't..do..it…FAITHHHH." Buffy screamed. "You have brought joy in my life where there was only emptiness. You have brought life to my heart where there was only death. Please god." Buffy was sobbing as she held Faith in her arms.
Just then she heard Spike whisper "let her go luv. She is at peace now." Buffy trembled at the coldness she felt in her body. "How Spike?" Buffy whispered in a heartbroken plea "How can she be at peace when I am in hell?" Spike felt something aching in his chest at the heartbreak he saw in Buffy's eyes. All of a sudden her eyes lit up and she asked "Turn her Spike."
"No pet a slayer does not deserve that."
She grabbed a stake and put it to his heart. "DO it Spike." Spike did not want to but he valued his life too much not to do otherwise. Okay love but you will be the one who regrets this. She will not be the one you love. She will be a demon."
Buffy pushed the stake harder against his chest. "Do it. There are spells we can do to anchor her soul and she will always be the woman I love." Buffy watched as Spike drained the blood from the other part of her soul. She felt bad for this but there was no other choice she could not let Faith go. Spike raked his nail across his wrist and fed the dark crimson flood that flowed like a river to her lover. Nothing happened as Spike stepped away. He did not look at Buffy as he said "It will be within two days" and walked away feeling ashamed for the part he had just played. Killing slayers was one thing but this was different. He liked Blondie and Faith. They actually brought joy to his life.
Buffy picked Faith up and cried as she felt how cold Faith was. There was nothing there of her lover. Buffy realized then what Spike was saying. She carried Faith to her house and to her room. Grateful everyone was sleeping. She gently laid Faith on the bed not aware of the blood that covered them both. Only thing that she was aware of was that her reason for existing was gone. Never to be the once warm lovely beauty she had been but at least she would still exist. So what if it was in a different form. She would call Willow and have her prepare the spell. She reached out and placed her hand on Faith cold chest, crying as she realized she would never feel that heartbeat again. Buffy pulled Faith's lifeless body to her and waited for Faith to come back to her.
"Faith, come on, you gotta be okay."
"Buffy, it's been two days you gotta let her go." Willow said.
Just then Faith bolted up in the bed. She looked around questioningly.
"B, something does not feel right. What happened? What is going on?"
Buffy knelt down in front of Faith as the tears streamed down her face. "Faith, I did not have a choice baby. I could not lose you please understand." Buffy had wrapped her arms around Faith's waist.
"Buffy, you didn't. Is that why I am so cold? B, I'm a vampire? How could you?" Faith had jumped up and was backing away from Buffy. "All the vamps we've dusted B we knew we would not live long. How could you?"
Willow was standing in the corner, not trusting Faith, she refused to leave the room. Faith was unstable before and even though her soul was restored Buffy had betrayed everything sacred to her. Faith had fought demons and now she was one of them. She actually felt sorry for Faith.
Faith was standing at the window and Buffy came up behind her. She was still crying as she went to wrap her arms around Faith. She felt Faith stiffen at her touch. "Faith I have searched for you all my life and I could not let you go. I am weak ok. I could not bear the thought of losing you." Buffy was sobbing as she talked to Faith.
Faith turned around and said "B, how could you want to be with me now? I am a monster. I can't deal with this B I gotta go."
Faith walked towards the door and Buffy screamed her name as she pulled the handle open. Faith jerked her hand back as the sun burned her flesh. Buffy ran up to her as she slammed the door shut. She grabbed Faith's hand and Faith jerked her hand back. "I think you have done enough B. I can't believe this." Faith went and laid down on the bed.
"B, I can't do this. I can not be this, I am not going to kill people. I made that mistake once and I won't let myself go there again. I am a slayer meant to kill all things evil. Because you were selfish I don't have anything. I can not forgive this B." Faith looked at Buffy with heartbreak in her eyes. "B, every moment we spent together was pure heaven. To hold you in my arms was what I was born for. Every smile you flashed at me made life worth living. You have brought the one thing to me that I wanted all my life. I loved living but you took that away from me."
Buffy was crying as she said "Faith, you will still live. We will still be…."
Buffy was cut off as Faith said "I loved you B and I always will but I can't be this. I can't do that to you." Before Buffy knew what happened Faith had grabbed the stake on the table. Buffy watched in horror as Faith plunged the stake into her chest. Buffy watched as the one thing that made her want to fight turn to dust. Buffy fell to her knees as she looked at the dust. Dust from her love, dust like her dreams. Willow wrapped her arms around Buffy as she mourned her lost love. The one thing Buffy cherished was gone. Buffy looked up at Willow in sorrow as she held her.
"I can't believe she did it Will. I was just trying to…"
"She could not live like that Buffy and you should not have expected her to. Just remember her and be glad for the time you had. Always remember Buffy that is all you can do."
Buffy looked at a picture of Faith and said "I will always remember."