Rain On My Window
by Slayer Tash
Rating: PG
Notes: I was bored at work...again and my mind has placed our girls in Scotland and Faith at a window looking at the rain...Coming up with a title has been hard and if it doesn't match the story it is cause it evolves the more I write.
It's been raining all morning, what am I talking about I am in Scotland it has been raining since 1926…nah not really but I have been here 3 days and the rain has stopped for maybe an or hour so here and there but I think that is to just rest the clouds…build their energy up again. I chuckle to myself at the imagery.
"Something funny?" Comes from behind me "Xander fall in a puddle again?"
"Nah B. Just thoughts."
"Well that is funny. I wasn't aware that you had thoughts. Well apart from sex good, vampires bad."
"The comedy stylings of Buffy Summers folks. She's here all week, enjoy the veal" I say with a grin as I turn to look at her.
"Well that's a first." She sits on the seat next to me.
"What is?" I ask.
"You smiling. I don't know how it was possible but you made the castle seem gloomier than normal."
"Sorry B…just trying to deal with having to be here and hoping we don't try and kill each other again. Gives a girl serious thoughts."
"You need to think about not killing me?"
"Actually right now, I need to think about not killing Kennedy and Satsu."
"Giving you a hard time?"
"The hardest" I breathe out "I know my past is all dotted with mess ups and fuck ups galore but I have been trying so hard and it just seems to mean nothing to so many people…the people I am trying to make amends to."
"I know Angel is proud of you."
"Yeah, well why did he ship me off to Scotland then? Why…when he was about to face the battle of all battles did he ship me off here? Correction knock me out and ship me off."
"I don't know Faith."
"Stupid undead moron."
She laughs softly.
"Look at me…you just lost the love of your life and I am bitching like a school girl."
"Angel…sure he was a big part of my life, my first love and all but not my true love."
"Are you shitting me? You two were more tragic than Romeo and Juliet."
"I was young and naïve back then. I had no idea."
"Do you think we ever will? You know…ever have an idea when it comes to matters of the heart and shit?"
She shrugs her shoulders "I know if I am never with another guy again it will be too soon."
"I am sure Satsu will be happy about that."
"I'm not with Satsu."
"Really? Cause the way she is spouting off to anyone that will listen is that she is the one and only of the one and only."
"One and only…the second one."
"You B. The one and only slayer."
"Are you forgetting the hundreds of thousands of girls…or you? I haven't been the chosen one for close to 10 years."
"I never really counted" I say with a sigh.
"You know you really piss me off when you say shit like that. You did matter, you do matter."
"Nah I didn't…don't but thanks for sayin so."
"Out of all the stupid things you have done I would have never picked self pity to be one of them."
"It ain't self pity B. It's the truth."
"Nope…self pity is pretty much what it is. I am not gonna pretend we were ever anything that resembled friends and I won't pretend that I did more than a half assed effort at trying to make us friends but I will tell you that I want that to change and in order for that to change you gotta stop this self pity crap. No friend of mine sits there and feels sorry for themselves."
"Bullshit!" I say.
"Okay it is totally bullshit." She says with a grin "But I say lets make a new rule. Today is the first day we have met…there is no Sunnydale, no LA, no trying to drown each other last time we met. There is just today and where it goes from there is up to us…as long as it isn't the same path as the Sunnydale that no longer exists."
"You want to forget all that?"
"Yeah."
"I dunno, there are some moments I would like to remember."
"The night at the Bronze before it all went to shit?" She says like she was reading my mind.
"Yeah."
"Okay we can keep that one. That was a great night."
"Do you have anything you want to remember?"
"Hmmmm, my favourite Faith memory…Synchronised slaying for sure. They were a great 3 weeks where we actually got along…ooh do you remember those awful horror movies you used to make me watch."
"I never used to make you do anything Blondie…I remember you would always hang around and drop hints…Mom is out of town and Dawnie is over at Janice's and I hate going back to that big empty house" I say in an over the top Buffy voice.
She punches me playfully on the shoulder "Liar."
"Am not" I say punching back "So the synchronised slaying combined with shitty horror movies stays."
"Anything else?"
"My one and only Christmas there."
She frowns.
"You went to save Angel. I stayed and spent the night with your Mom. She wiped away 16 years of crappy parenting in one night."
"Mom had a way of doing that…wiping away the crappy, making you feel like the most special person in the world."
"I'm sorry B. I am so sorry that you lost her."
"Thanks Faith." She gives me a small smile.
We sit in silence for a bit.
"The first time I saw you fight." She says out of the blue "I would really like to keep that memory."
"Okay….why?"
"I just do okay."
"Alright. I am done with what I want to keep so we start afresh now?"
"Yeah. Hi. My name is Buffy."
"Uh sure it is" I grin.
"Faith!" She slaps my arm.
"What?" I rub where she hit me with a chuckle "If we were really meeting for the first time and you told me that was your name that would be my reaction."
"Could you at least pretend to have some kind of interpersonal skills?"
"I do have interpersonal skills and if you wanna see them then we may need to move to a more intimate location" I give a patented eyebrow wiggle for effect.
"Well we have just met and I don't think I am ready for that kind of interaction just yet."
"When do you think you will be ready? cause I gotta say this re- meeting of you…has all kindsa old feelings resurfacing."
"It does?"
"Yeah. If we are gonna start again we need to be honest with each other. I had the crazy lust for you back in the day, like over the top crazy. I never ever had that. I was okay with never ever having something for longer than a night, and most times it was never really the whole night but you…with you I could see myself doin the whole kit and caboodle" I take a big breath in "I still feel that way now but I want us to have a foundation that isn't based on hurt and betrayal and lies. You mean something to me Buffy…you mean a lot to me and I hope this doesn't alter your whole lets start over again plan cause I want that, I want that more than anything."
I am expecting a slap in the face or her to just get up walk away and never speak to me again so the feel of her lips against mine is a total shock.
I pull back from her "B?"
She leans in again and presses her lips to mine and so I don't pull away again slides her hand in to my hair. Not that she needs to do that. I ain't no fool. I kiss her back softly massaging her lips with mine then alternating with a little more open mouthed kisses, pulling her top lip in between mine or her bottom lip before she pulls back completely.
"I have wanted to kiss you for what seems like forever."
"You have?"
"Mmmhmmmm."
I know I should probably answer her or at least say something but her hand is massaging my scalp…that isn't as gross as it sounds, trust me.
"And I know that from now on I only wanna kiss you forever."
"Okay" I managed to gasp out.
Our lips are touching again, softly and sweetly then they are wrenched away from me quickly and abruptly.
"Giles hey" Buffy is now standing up facing her watcher.
"Hello Buffy…Faith."
"G" I say trying to control my breathing.
"I just came past to say that Willow and I are taking a group of the slayers to London with us this evening. I thought you Buffy might like to join us."
"London? No thanks. I do not like that place at all."
"Faith?"
I get up "No thanks G…I wanna stay in the quiet for a while if that's okay."
"Of course. Have you thought anymore about my offer?"
"Some, maybe we can talk when you get back."
"Of course." He smiles at me "Do you think I could get a moment alone with Buffy?"
"Sure thing" I pat his arm and head up stairs my room.
I laid on my bed for ages thinking I should be pissed at Buffy for reacting the way she did but I ain't. Don't know why that is…it is new for sure.
The last body part of her to get that close to my mouth was her fist… or maybe her foot. I dunno our last fight was a biggin' but right now I ain't buggin' about it at all.
I think last time or every previous time we have been around each other our emotions have been amplified mine cause I was so frustrated at not being able to release what I was feeling and hers…well I dunno bout hers really.
Maybe she hated me that much and me being an expert at doing all the wrong things at the wrong time it just escalated for her.
Alls I know is kissing that girl will be something that I will always wanna do and will never get tired of it.
A soft knock on my bedroom door jars me from my thoughts.
I get up off the bed and open it. I find the blonde that always seems to be in my thoughts standing on the other side of the door.
"Sup B?" I give her a grin.
"Sorry about downstairs but he kinda scared me with his coughing and it was just natural reaction to jump up like that. It wasn't cause of what I was doing at all."
"Chill B" I stand aside as an offer for her to come in, which she does.
"You aren't mad?"
"Why would I be mad?" I ask as I close the door.
"Cause of what I did" She says sitting on my bed.
"Natural reaction. I'd have done the same."
"So the kisses, they were okay?"
"They were bordering on hot."
"Only bordering?"
"Well yeah but that is understandable cause they were our first ones" I sit next to her.
"I can do way better than borderline hot." She says turning in to me.
"I kinda liked those kisses B…never been kissed with that much tenderness…that much care too I spose" I say and lean in to kiss her exactly the way she had been kissing me earlier.
...to be continued...