Untouched
by Slayer Tash
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Sadly I don't own any of them cause if I did Eliza would
be doing naughty things to me and I wouldnt be writing fics!
Spoilers: None really.
Dedication: Okay so this is for E.
Notes: After her request the other day using The Veronica's I mulled over a
few ideas then another Aussie song I love at the moment came to
mind. So I used them both as inspiration.
I think it is a pretty shitty attempt but my boss isn't here today
and I told E I was going to do one.
So Buffy sent me this mixed cd with her latest package with a short note explaining that it is important that I listen to the first song on the cd.
I am not looking forward to it at all. Our tastes in music aren't exactly the same, over the years whether it be by email, text message or her packages she has had recommendations and all of them sucked ass. I have had several years of listening to girly pop songs. I mean come on JoJo you are like 14 years old what do you know about broken hearts unless the tool from next door stole your favourite Barbie and shaved her head and you couldn't play with her again.
I swear Buffy does it to torture me. She can't do it in person so she does it via song. It is cruel and unusual punishment for sure and I don't understand cause I thought she had forgiven me for all the bullshit we went through but I think I am doomed to pay for eternity via song.
Sure I could just not listen to the songs but I learnt the hard way that this would never be an option. About a week after the reco from B she would call and she would ask me what I thought of the song. The first time I tried it she got so pissed at me and told me I wasn't taking the friend thing seriously. Did you know you can sulk and pout through a phone line? Nobody pouts like a Summers chick that is for sure.
Currently she and Dawn are in Australia and have been for about 6 months. They have been all over the place since Sunnydale collapsed in on itself. I have opted to stay here in the US. I was planning on heading back to jail and spending the next 5-10 years in solitary for my breakout but by the time we got to LA I had a clean slate thanks to Angel. I was invited to back pack through Europe with Buffy but I thought that I should make amends before I start living the life of the free. I live vicariously through Buffy.
I look through the package she has sent me. Vegemite…the note attached to it states 'Thought you might like this cause it is black and we all know how much you love black'. I chuckle to myself as I crack the lid open. I take a whiff, it doesn't smell too bad so I dip my finger in and get myself a nice dollop and pop it in to my mouth.
What the fuck! I cough and splatter the shit all over the counter. I grab a tissue and shove it in my mouth to clean that crap out. It is like pure salt…that is the only way to describe it. I put the lid back on and notice the small pto on the note 'Best taken in small doses. If applying to bread or toast a small scrape will do'. Gee seems to me like something that should have been on the front of the note not an after thought!
The next item in my parcel is a pair of flip flops with the Aussie flag printed on them. They will go real well with the 10 inches of snow we had last night.
The rest is all little knick knacky things from their travels. A little fridge magnet with a huge red rock with a name that begins with a U…not gonna even attempt to pronounce it, tea towels with the ideal aussie bloke and shiela on it…what the frig is a sheila? Friggen teaspoons with pictures of small towns…heh I guess if the picture fits on a teaspoon they must be small.
The last thing is a white envelope that has instructions 'Do not open unless you have listened to the song'. For a second I think fuck it and go to open but that woman will have a way of knowing that I didn't follow her instructions and will bitch me out no end. So much easier doing what she says and most times she is right anyway. Don't ever tell her I said that though.
I pick up the cd and go over to my stereo in the living room and I put it in and press play. While the discs load I read the play list she wrote out 'Untouched' by The Veronicas is the first song.
The songs starts up and it isn't that bad. Nice mix of rock and electronica.
I go ooo ooo you go ahh ahh La la la la La la la la I can la la la la la la I wanna wanna wanna get get get What I want, don't stop Gimme, gimme, gimme whatcha got got Cuz I can't wait wait wait any more more more Don't even talk about the consequence Cuz right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me And I don't give a damn what they say Or what they think, think Cuz you're the only one who's on my mind I'll never ever let you leave me I'll try to stop time forever Never want to hear you say goodbye
This song really is different from ones she has made me listen to in the past, it actually doesn't suck ass!
I feel so untouched And I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now Need you so much somehow I can't forget you Going crazy from the moment I met you Untouched And I need you so much
Suddenly I get the feeling that this is more than just a song.
See you Breathe you I want to be you Ah la la la Ah la la la You can take take take take take time time To live live The way you gotta gotta live your life Give me give me give me all of you you Don't be scared Of seeing through the loneliness I want it more more more Don't even think about what's right or wrong Or wrong or right Cuz in the end it's only you and me And no one else is going to be around To answer all the questions left behind And you and I are meant to be So even if the world falls down today You still got me to hold you up up And I would never let you down down
Shit B is what I think as the song goes back in to the chorus again.
I feel so untouched And I want you so much That I just can't resist you It's not enough to say that I miss you I feel so untouched right now Need you so much somehow I can't forget you Going crazy from the moment I met you Untouched And I need you so much
I listen to the song a few more times before pausing the cd. I think this is the first time a song she has asked me to listen to has had this effect. Laughing til I pee my pants a little, wishing I could cut my ears off, stabbing myself in the eye to distract myself from the noise is the normal response but right now I can hear my heart pounding in my ears cause this isn't just her song of the month there is a message she is sending me.
It is telling me everything I have wanted to hear since the day I realised I was in love with her nearly 10 years ago.
I go back over to the parcel and pick up the envelope and tear it open. Itinerary details for a flight in my name. Flying out from LAX tomorrow night landing in Perth Western Australia after a quick stop over in Singapore.
She wants me to go visit her…I don't know if I am ready for that…Man I am such a pussy. I have been making amends for years now don't I deserve a holiday? Fuck not even a holiday…a chance to make it properly right with Buffy.
What do I do? What do I do? What do I do? I have everything I want being offered to me and I am torn!
I look back over at the stereo and press play…bit of background music while I make the biggest decision of my life shouldn't hurt. I notice that the second song is 'Don't You Wanna' by the Rogue Traders…Never heard of them.
Embracing the thought of tasting
Shit…I better get packing, looks like I am going to Australia.
Man Aussie music rocks!