A Little Letter
by Suki
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: All the usual, don't own um, just borrowed um!
Timeline: Anything after season 6.
Spoilers: Ha!
Note: First story, please be gentle.
Feedback: Sure all I can get, even if it hurts (I like when it hurts
by the by).
Free, that's what the papers say!
So, here I am on my way to L.A., Angel said it was okay…I could bunk there for a while until the stench of jail wears off, sometimes I think it never will. As far as the others in the L.A. crowd is concerned, I only have to deal with Cordy, queen "C" herself, something happened with Wesley but Angel isn't lettin on.
Ya I know, "B", one little letter says a whole lot. Boy I messed that up bad!
I don't think I can fix it, don't know if I should try. Maybe I will just send a letter tellin her how bad I was at the time, ya know hating life and all that was in it. I was so self centered, I thought cuz I was a slayer that she would drop everything for me, wrong!
I thought I loved her for a while, thought I loved Angel for a while. Just goes to show you how screwed I was. I still have feelings for B just don't know what they are yet. I heard she has had it pretty bad for a while, dying, her Mom dying, the whole "my sister is a key thing" …yikes and I thought prison was bad.
The worst part about prison was feelin the kill knowing that I had to be out there. If I closed my eyes tight and covered my ears I could hear my blood running in my veins, screaming out the slayer need. That was hard to fight, but it mostly happened after B died. When she came back I felt myself split in two again….enough of the B drama, bus is pullin in. Now I have to get myself over to some hotel Angel said they all live at now.
Okay here goes nothing……
I am standing out in front of Angel's hotel, I can do this, I can do this….no I can't, I suck! Calm here, I'm acting like a fish wife.
Okay here goes.
Wow!
Not bad, nice place this is pretty cool, he owns this? Angel walks up to me and just hugs me. I don't know what to do, I feel the last two years just seep outta me, I start to cry and cry and cry. He lets me, he just holds me.
I realize I haven't really touched another person in 2 years, it's weird.
"So Faith you okay," Angel says.
"Not really" I say, while wiping my eyes on my sleeve, "but I will be. Sorry Angel, I don't know where that came from."
"I do" he says "and it's about time, you know you are going to have to deal with all of it Faith, the feelings, the remorse, maybe you should talk to someone…."
*I hope he doesn't start into one of those redemption crap things cuz I'm wicked hungry and tired, oops too late he's off.* I stop him, "No offense Angel but I gotta crash."
"Oh Faith, first I want you to meet someone, now don't get like you do until you hear her out."
What…. Like I get! Nice…..2 years in that hole and ….oh well I guess it's gonna be a long road.
"What….what her?"
This chick comes walking out of the back…not bad. Red hair shoulder length *makes me think of Red, cuz of the hair,* nice tight jeans and she's wearing Doc's, how wicked cool. This lady knows kicks.
"Um what …Angel?"
"Faith I would like you to meet Dorian Grey."
I stick out my hand and shake hers, that's when Angel says she's from the watchers council……
"The council! Angel you played me! I trusted you."
I hit him with everything I had.....he went down hard. I blew past her...what's her name!
She's yelling something at me, "wait Faith it's not the council you remember." I stop! Oh this should be sweet!
"Lady there is only one council and they tried to kill me!"
"Faith that council is gone as a manner of speaking, when Miss Summers left it, well fell apart. Myself and a few others picked up the pieces, we are the ones that got you out of jail. You are the current slayer and you need our help" she said.
"I need your help, bull lady, I need your help, I need me and that's it."
I was about ready to blow.
Miss Manners is like, "You tried that Faith and it didn't work out all that well."
Now I am ready to rip I mean clean house. I tell her I got screwed, I was left to rot in that motel by little miss B and her gang, nobody gave a shit about me, I start to cry.
This lady, I tell ya she's got balls.....she walks up to me and says "that was then, now you have me and the coven in New Cannan."
Angel stirs and says "glad you didn't 'get like you get'."
"Sorry Angel but I don't understand."
"Faith she's a doctor a psychologist and she's with the council, the new council. I need ice for my jaw if you will excuse me."
I am still ripped but I am willing to listen, she puts her arm around me and says, "let's you and I have a chat shall we."
This babe don't know me too well does she.
Notes: Part of this is in Faith's voice then it switches over to Dorian's.
She has asked me to call her Dorian, no kidding! She looks at me and she can tell I'm done, shutin down for the night.
She says "Faith why don't we first get you settled in your room then we can start fresh in the morning." I am too tired to fight to complain anything, I follow her blindly.
My room's not that bad. She said Angel is okay with me fixing it the way I want, what do they think I want to put posters up, come on! This is my first night in a real bed, no county issue for me, the sheets might as well be satin they feel so good. Sleep please.
DREAMS hate em !
I have a lot of them usually bad, this is a real winner. The Mayor is looking for B and me and we are running, running like no tomorrow. We stop by a big tree and kinda look around it seeing if he's following us. We can't see anything, then B turns to me and asks me why?
"Why what," I say.
"Why did you do it Faith?"
I don't know what to say to her…..She looks at me and says, "Okay if that's the way you want it."
She starts screaming for the Mayor "she's over here, come get her."
I can hear his voice as I run from them, "why Faith, why did you betray me, why?"
I wake up screaming and crying, but the weird thing is someone has their arms around me and from the feel of it it ain't Angel! It's Dorian and she is stroking my hair telling me it's just a dream and everything is going to be okay. This must be what it's like to have a Mom, to make sure you are okay and to hold you. I pull back and look at her, she looks nice like a Mom should. No make up tousled hair from sleep, I sink back into her embrace and just rest there.
If you can believe this she tucks me in….pulls the sheet up around me kisses me on the forehead and tells me she is just down the hall if I need her.
So you tell me which is the dream?
A slayer has senses that are so intense, sight, hearing and smell. I jump up cuz I smell bacon and pancakes, maybe waffles doesn't matter cuz I will eat it all.
I head down strairs to find Angel and Dorian in the kitchen sitting around the table.
"Morning," I keep my eyes down, last night was too intense for me and I am not really sure it was real.
I plop down in the chair and pull the coffeepot towards me and pour a black cup. I look up to find both of them staring at my…. "WHAT?"
Angel says "nothing sorry," and excuses himself to go take care of some paper work, he's got this stupid smile on his face like he knows things I don't.
Dorian says to me "so, did you sleep better after I left you last night?"
Shit it was real!
"Sure yes thanks, sorry for waking ya. That was a pretty bad one."
Dorian asks me if I want to talk about it. So the shrinking begins.
"Sure why not Doc, crack my head open and tell me what you think."
"Well" she says, "I read your file from the prison and it doesn't tell me much you are not really a talker and being a slayer you really could not tell them all that was going on, could you Faith?"
"No," I steer my eyes down to the table once again, she reaches across the table and gently puts her hand on mine.
What's your deal lady? Why you bein so nice to me?
Well I guess I am just going to have to be straightforward and honest with this kid because I don't think she is going to believe anything I say for quite a while.
"Okay Faith here goes. First I will never lie to you, I am here to protect you at all cost. I am here to psychoanalyze you and help you deal with your past and most recent traumas. My resume you say… I am Wiccian fourth generation, I have a Doctorate in psychology and have been a member of the coven for about three years now, since we founded it when the council broke apart." I look over at her and her mouth is hanging open I gently reach over and tip her chin up. She looks at me with those big brown eyes and I just hope I never let her down. "Now Faith this might sting a little," I move so that I am sitting right next to her and take her hands in mine. She is looking at me with awe like I hold the answers to everything she has been seeking, oh boy what have I gotten myself into?
"Faith your first watcher, (I can feel her stiffen as I hold her gaze), Faith she was my partner." I see a look of confusion settle across her face, "Faith she was my wife, my life partner." This is too much for her she tries to pull away but I hold fast and pull her into an embrace, she fights me for a few seconds then starts to sob telling my she is sorry, so, so sorry. I try my best to comfort her, but who am I kidding this is killing me telling her. "Faith that's why I am here to finish what Anna started with you. Faith she sent me so many letters about you, she told me everything about you. I feel like I know you already."
Her sobs subside but tears start to slip down my cheeks when I mention her name.
"Oh Faith I miss her so much sometimes I can't stand it."
And there we sat the two of us, mourning her, letting some of the guilt and the hurt go.
"Faith everything is going to be okay, we both will be okay."
I hold her face in my hands and with my thumbs wipe the tears away, "go upstairs now and wash your face. When you get back down here you can eat then will train for a while." I place my hands on the table to brace myself and the grief hits me.
Angel stands in the doorway and asks me if I am all right?
"You heard?"
"Yup" he says, "I am sorry Dorian I really am."
"Thanks Angel, I've moved past most of it but it's hard sometimes. Angel, I feel for Faith, she had to watch it all, I so can not do this now, sorry. Angel she is a really good kid, how did it get this bad? Quentin Travers took most of the records on the slayers with him, so I don't have a lot to go on. Can you fill me in on some of it?"
"We where all to blame so to speak" Angel says. "We let her slip through the cracks, after I came back….. things for Buffy were very fractured. Of course no one knew that Faith was that young, I think Giles would have kept a closer eye on her if he knew."
"I have some of Mr. Giles journals, he forwarded copies to me through the coven. It is obvious he did know about Faith's background or age. But Angel, why did you all leave her in that motel room, no one trained her, did you know if she was eating, sleeping?"
"Okay Dorian slow down, we made mistakes all of us."
"Sorry Angel, No I am not sorry! What the hell were you all thinking? I swear when I get my hands on Buffy Summers, I don't know what I will do."
From the doorway Faith says, "It wasn't her fault. I could have stopped, slowed down. The power was too much I was diggin it big time. It was my chance to shine outside of B's shadow. I didn't care who I stepped over."
"Faith, that's not the point, god they saw you spiraling out of control so they used it against you, she used you."
"It's okay Dorian I would have done the same thing to them to her."
"Faith that doesn't make it right."
"STOP OKAY, leave B out of this."
"Faith, Buffy is a big part of your problem……"
"NO, not here not now" Faith yells, and looks in Angel's direction.
"Don't worry I am leaving, I have to check on a case, I will see you tonight. Oh and by the way Faith, Cordy comes back today."
"Thanks Angel and I am sorry for yelling, and thanks for the heads up about queen 'C'. I'll be good I promise."
"Okay bye and guys please don't break anything" he says walking out.
"Seriously Dorian, B is a subject that I don't do well with."
"I can see that Faith but you will have to deal with her sooner or later."
"How about now!"
I turn around and there she is standing in the doorway, B in all her glory, god she's beautiful.
I am frozen I don't know what to do. I slowly approach her like she really isn't there….
"B, please?"
Her arms are folded on her chest, the usual B pose when she is being all tough.
"B, please," I don't know why but I dropped to my knees and start to sob, hugging her around her waist.
I feel a light touch on my hair, her fingers just barely floating over it, she says, "shh it's okay we will work it out okay shh."
She closed her arms around my shoulders and I sob harder, "god no B don't, don't."
"I should go" Dorian says, Buffy looks over at her.
"Giles called me" she said, "I thought I should come…..to see if there is anything...... I don't really know why I am here."
"Yes, you do" Dorian says as she walks out.
I am holding Faith while she crys, I realize I am crying too. I don't know what I am supposed to do. Why does it matter to her so much, this me?
"Faith come on stand up, Faith come on."
I get her in a chair, she sits there, and her hair hangs in her face. I reach down and bring her chin up, I see her tear stained face, no make-up, just a scared kid, kid she's 19.
"Faith what I am I going to do with you?"
"B, I am sorry, I just couldn't fight it, I just wanted what was mine."
"I know Faith, mistakes all the way around, everybody gets a piece. Faith I have learned a lot in the pass two years enough to fill a life time."
"Ya, sorry about your Mom B... and dying and all."
"The dying part I asked for, … Mom dying, I did not, but thank you Faith. I found out recently that everybody gets to go to the darkside once in a while, including me."
"Not you B, you are the hero….."
"STOP Faith, I am not a hero."
"No B you are, you are to me."
"Faith I don't want that, I can't do that for you."
"There is nothing to do B, it's just you."
"Faith don't you understand this is why you got into this mess in the first place!"
*She's yelling at me B is yelling at me. She is not hitting my face. I think she is telling me she understands* …… umm what?
"Faith listen to me, I am a girl, a woman just like you that got picked for this…this destiny. I am no better than you, all of us all the slayers, we are all the same don't you get that?"
"I am trying B I am trying." I am wiping my face, sniffing I must look like crap.
"No you don't Faith, for the first time in a long time you look like you are living."
She rests her hand on my cheek as I look up at her.
"Now, tell me all about this Dorian woman."
I take B up to my room so we can sit and talk and not be interrupted, as we lounge on the couch I explain to her all I know about Dorian Grey, which isn't much.
B lets out a small sigh when I tell her that Dorian was my watcher's partner.
I like that about B; she feels things for people I can tell by her face that she is sad for Dorian. When I am done she just looks at me, you know that B look that says, why, why do TPTB do this to us/people?
B speaks for the first time in a while, "Faith what are you going to do now, now that you are out ……"
"Prison B that's where I was. It's okay to say it."
"No Faith, it's easy for me to say. I sent you there, I guessed that would be the safest place for you."
"No B, you thought it was the safest place for you, but it's okay I know you were scared of me."
"I was not scared of you Faith, I think I sent you there so we couldn't hurt each other anymore. If things kept on the way they were one of us would be dead by now."
"Ya, B, but you would at least get another slayer outta the deal and you could be free."
She doesn't find this funny at all, her head is down and she is twisting her hands in her lap.
"B, I'm sorry okay, it's just, we know the drill right, we die, a new slayer comes, been that way for ever. Hey, you okay B?"
She lifts her head and I see the pain and anguish written all over her.
"Faith, I don't want you to die I never wanted you to die."
"Funny way of showing it B, the whole knife thing." I knew that cut her deep…the look on her face was enough.
"Faith you tried to kill us all (her voice is soft but cold and she is looking right through me), the Mayor knew what that poison would do to Angel and he knew what I would have to do to cure him. Faith he knew I would come after you eventually."
"I know B and I'm sorry…I shouldn't have said that."
"Faith if I could go back and change the events that shaped what happened I would but I can't. I know I could have tried harder with you, I could have done a lot of this differently but I didn't."
*She is up and pacing now…..B on a roll can mean two things, she is going to have a break through or she is gonna beat the crap outta of something. I am sitting right here and keepin my mouth shut.*
"B slow down I'm listening."
"Faith I was so screwed up when I came back from running away. I was trying to gain Mom's trust back as well as Willow's and Xander's. Then you showed up that night at the Bronze…. I was so jealous of you!"
*Me B was jealous of me.*
"You were out on your own making your own way, you enjoyed the slayer thing, too much at times, and (she smirks when she says this, and I find myself smirking back at her) the whole Khaki thing happened…..then Angel came back."
It's like B is too tired to go on, she sits down and puts here head in her hands. I gently place my hand on her back to let her know it's going to be all right. She doesn't shake me off so I move my hand back and forth a few times just to comfort her. She looks up at me and says "Faith I am really sorry for everything that went wrong. I am still really raw about everything but I know I want to make thing better between us. Do you want that Faith? Can we…I don't know work on this, (she gestures between the two of us with her hands)."
"Ya B I want that." She leans forward and rests her forehead on mine. "B, I am….so sorry for everything…"..Sob.
We both cry for a few as we hold each other, and for the first time in a long time I don't feel that tightness in my chest, that shit that pulls me into the hole, maybe I am findin my way back.
B begs off after a while and wants to head off to her room, I think she just wants to be alone, I kick the toe of my boot back and forth when I ask her if we can talk again later and surprised me when she pinches my cheek and says "sure Faith I just gotta rest a little and call home, tell Dawn and Willow what's up."
"Kay, B…get some rest," I say to her back as she leaves my room.
I let out a sigh, not just a sigh but a fucking big ass sigh! Well maybe I should go find the Doc and tell her what's up. I find her in an office down stairs typing away on a laptop, she is wearing bifocals, and her hair is pulled back off her shoulders, she looks like a professor.
As I watch her I find myself thinking about her and Anna. Did they have a house together; were they married kind of? I guess what I am wondering is if they shared a life, not just a bed. I get kinda wigged at the prospect of that, but I tell ya being away in prison and having shit for so long …the only thing I want right now is a place, a place where I can start a life. And, I think I might actually want to share it with…….
"Faith, umm Faith, hello?"
"Oh ya, Doc Hey."
"What's up, did you want to speak to me Faith?"
"Ya I do Doc, about a lot of things."
Note: I am not a therapsit...just kickin some ideas around.
Buffy sat on the bed in her room at the hotel while cradling her cell phone on her ear.
"No Dawnie everything is okay. Yes she asked about you, no we did not fight, yes I am being nice to her, what do you mean 'how I can get'? Dawn, Dawn… Put Willow on the phone!"
Dorian rested her chin in her hand as she listened to Faith talk. She could see why Anna had the affection she had for Faith, she was a bright kid and pretty funny when she wanted to be.
Dorian had been in L.A. for about a week, she really missed the East Coast, the people in Los Angeles are so different. New England just seemed more routed in tradition and practice, she didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing just different. People where she was from were accused of being rigid and snobby, but to Dorian that just wasn't true.
L.A. is a transplanted society, and Dorian just felt like everything was temporary, this was not a place that she wanted to stay. She missed the others in the Coven, she called frequently but it wasn't enough. The Lammas ritual had been preformed and she was not there to join in, she felt very disjointed. Thank the goddess the Samhain was approaching, her and her sister witches would have a huge celebration.
Dorian remembered how Anna loved Halloween; she loved to see the kids all dressed up in their costumes trick or treating. Children, that's what had originally drawn the two woman together, that and witchcraft. It seemed such a long painful road the she had traveled to bring her to where she sat now, literally sat now in front of a young woman no more than a child with the destiny of humankind on her shoulders. If Dorian could help her knock that considerable chip off, maybe then Faith could carry the responsibility she now was ready to take on.
Most of Faith's conversations centered around her childhood in Boston, she seemed to take comfort in the fact that both she and Dorian were from New England, she felt she didn't have to explain things in detail to her. Some streets, building and other landmark Dorian had been to. It was the description of Faith's parents that Dorian found most disturbing.
In the background checks that she had done Faith's stepfather was in prison and the mother could not be found. Dorian didn't let Faith know any of this, she felt it was just too much for her to deal with right now, also she didn't seem to mention them other when was directly asked.
The childhood issues aside it seemed that the events in Sunnydale plagued Faith's mind more than anything, so that seemed like a good place to start.
Actually the place where Faith was speaking of right now.
"Ya know, when I hit Sunny 'd' I thought me and B would do it up right! I figured I had a while before Kakistos caught up with me, I would crash for a while get to know B find out what the what was on her then bail, but….."
"But what Faith, you stayed a while in Sunnydale after Kakistos was dead…why?"
"I stayed because of her, because of B."
"I kind of figured that Faith, have you ever told Buffy how you feel about her?"
"See Doc that's the thing, I want to feel so much, so much for B, but last time I was thinking this way it got me in a lot of trouble and I ain't headin down that path again."
"Faith, no one says you have to figure out your feelings for Buffy right away, you need time to put things together, figure out things for a while."
"I know but she's here now, she right up stairs, and she smells so good, have your smelled her Doc?"
"No Faith I haven't smelled Buffy, but I think I know how you feel, it's a nice feeling."
"What do you mean….?" Faith tilted her head to the side as Dorian looked at her.
"To be in love Faith, to have feeling for someone……"
"Woooo Doc I never said I was in love!"
"Okay Faith how do you explain, the pacing that you are doing, the 'have you smelled B' thing? Faith it's okay to have feeling for her. I remember my first real love and it was wonderful, painful, full of angst and I wouldn't change a thing about it or her."
"So, it's really okay to feel this to feel something for a girl??? I mean I know it's okay like Duh right…why do I care what people think!"
"Yes Faith it's okay to love her. Because of your rather distorted image of familial existences and how they are to relate to each other as well as delayed emotion response to stimuli due to Pavlovian effects it no doubt you need …well to speak to a therapist and discuss your options."
"Umm Doc did you just say I'm a little fucked up cuz my Mom and step Dad sucked as parents and I have screwed view point sometimes about shit?"
"Umm, yup that's about it Faith."
"Okay just checking, thanks Doc."
Buffy had only meant to stop down and tell Faith that she was off the phone and did she maybe want to take a walk and get a mocha. She did not intend to over hear what Faith had said…….
Oh my god, she loves me, as in loves me? Okay what do I feel….flattered, why am I sweating and my belly feels funny?
Buffy, stumbled forward.....okay gotta move come on legs move. When she turned she ran right into none other than...
"Oh Cordelia, hey umm hows it going?"
"Hi Buffy, what are you doing?"
"Umm I was looking for Faith, but she is in with Dorian right now so, how ya doing Cordy, (as she puts her arm around Cordy to steer her away from the office)."
"I am fine Buffy, what is your damage? Why are you acting so weird?"
"Me weird, not at all.....um tell Faith I will be in my room when she's done." Buffy runs pass Cordelia nearly spinning her around.
Slayers, freaks, if they aren't trying to kill you they are running away from something they can't handle.
"Well Faith I thinks that's enough for today, don't you?"
"Ya, I am kinda talked out."
"Faith you did some good work here today, I want you to know that."
"Thanks Doc, hey can I ask you a question?"
"Sure Faith what is it?"
"Anna, did you guys want kids and stuff and a house or whatever?"
Dorian slumped down in her chair, she knew Faith would ask these questions eventually but not now.
"Yes Faith I/we wanted those things. We has some of those things, I was supposed to join you two after your training out under way. I still have the house we picked out I just haven't lived there that much, I went back to England after she died. I couldn't face the memories."
"You bought a house ....where is it?"
"It's in Boston by the Charles, not far from the boat houses," Dorian took off her glasses as she told Faith this.
"Wow, not a bad place to live Doc, you got money?"
"Yes, kind of, Anna and I did alright. Anna had the house all figured out, you were to be stationed in Boston, slaying right on the East coast. Your apartment was right on the bottom floor, it had its own private entrance......"
"Um Doc, I was gonna live with you guys, you and Anna."
"Yes, Faith that was the plan."
In those few minutes Faith felt a world of hurt come crashing down on her. She had had a chance for a life, it had all been planned out and that bastard Vamp had wrecked it all in one night.
"Doc, I gotta go I um gotta find B."
"Faith are you alright?"
"Ya Doc it's not everyday you find out what could have been, umm see ya."
Faith, ran to the main lobby, look at the front doors, *run or not* can't run, this sucks.
"Faith, ..."
"Not now Cordy..." Faith spun around "and yes I am sorry and yes I hated prison, yes you are still good lookin, and where is B?"
"For the last statement I forgive you and she's up in her room. Oh and Faith, ya look good kid."
"Thanks 'C'."
Faith ran to Buffy's door and knocked, she wasn't sure of what to say, who but Buffy could understand this.
"Faith, hi come on in. You okay, you look scared." She put her arms on Faith's to keep her still.
Faith was, a little out of breath, they way you get when you are trying to stop from screaming, or you are really excited.
"B, it was all hooked up, I, I was gonna be takin care of they...."
"Shh slow down Faith, slow down, did someone hurt you...tell me Faith?"
"B, Anna and Dorian I was supposed to be with them, they had a house, they were gonna give a shit about me."
Buffy put her forehead against Faith's as a gesture to calm her down.
"B, then Anna was killed, ...I, I didn't know."
"Faith it's okay baby, it's okay." Buffy slowly pulled Faith into a soft hug, she rubbed her back and keep her chant of "it's okay baby, it's okay baby."
After a few minutes Faith pulled away, "B I almost wish she didn't tell me."
"Why did she Faith," Buffy was tryng to control her anger for Dorian in having told Faith.
"I asked, me and my big mouth."
Buffy reached up and gently wiped a tear away as it traveled down Faith's cheek.
Without think, without reason to stop her, gravity took Buffy's lips to Faith's. Just a wisp of a breath fell on Faith's lips before Buffy closed her eyes and leaned into Faith.
Almost a gasp escaped Faith's mouth when Buffy removed her lips from Faith's.
Their foreheads still touching and looking into each others eyes...all Buffy could say was, "wow."
Faith didn't think she could speak in fact she didn't think she could walk.
"B....I gotta sit down, or I am gonna fall down."
"Oh sorry, come here," she guided Faith to her bed and sat beside her. Faith was happy to notice that Buffy didn't let go of her hands.
"You okay Faith?" Buffy eyes were down cast and she was tracing lazy patterns on the top of Faith hand.
"B.....what just happened."
"I don't know Faith, I do know that I liked it, I liked it a lot. And I am confused....hurt, I miss, Dawn and Willow."
Without saying another word Buffy launched herself at Faith, with her hands on either side of Faith's head she caressed Faith's lips with her own.
Buffy had never kissed a woman before and she marveled at how soft Faith's lips were, how gentle Faith was. She coouldn't get over how Faith smelled, like cherries and her mouth was sweet and warm and her kiss sincere. As she stroked her cheek she noticed it was wet and when she pulled away she noticed Faith was crying.
"Faith are you okay, please did I hurt you? I am so sorry."
Faith had to grab Buffy around the waist to stop her from trying to get off the bed.
"B, stop, no, I'm fine really, I just never knew, never knew I could feel, feel something like that, like this" and she pressed a quick kiss to Buffy's lips.
"I have to be honest with you B...don't do this if you don't want it. Cuz this time I'm not gonna go, I am not a kid anymore. Buffy Summers I want you to know that I love you, I always have and always will, but this time I am calling the shots. I know we have been through a lot, I know there is a lot more to go. B, I got it bad for you, I gotta know ....do you love me, do you feel anything for me?"
Dedication: To my wife Eileen/dykeleen, I love you with all my heart! Thank you for all your support, u r everything!
Buffy was kind of struck by Faith's words, the last person that said this to her got on a helicopter and left.
"B, I don't mean to piss ya off, or scare you but I gotta take care of me too."
"I know Faith, it's just I made a big mistake in Sunnydale…. If we are being completely honest, I slept with Spike, there I said it."
Faith was to say the least stunned, "not her B, not with another vamp. B, what is it with you and vamps."
"Faith it wasn't like that, coming back, I felt nothing, being with Spike made me feel."
"You loved him B?"
"No Faith, not emotional feel??? I needed to feel anything."
"B, what are you trying to tell me?"
"Faith I am so ashamed of what I did with him, the things I let him do to me."
"Slow down B, tell me what did he do to you. Did he hurt you," Buffy was crying by this time and Faith interpreted it as a yes.
"B, I promise, he is done, he won't hurt you again."
"Faith, I let him," Buffy said this through a sob that was barely above a whisper. "I let him Faith, I wanted to feel something even if it was pain at least I felt something."
"Oh B," Faith pulled her into a hug and rocked her.
"B, don't you know you are precious, special. For someone to hurt you …it was just that….. he was hurting you."
"Faith I realized things about myself with Spike, (Faith was not sure if she wanted to hear this), being a slayer is tough on partners, isn't it Faith you know what I am talking about."
"Ya, B I do. I didn't know that you liked it like that …..rough, or liked it like I do. I guess cuz there have never been two slayers before no one knew this shit. What about now B, are you still, umm sleepin with him/it?"
"I broke it off with him Faith, I told him I was using him…but he didn't care he showed up at the house to try to convince me that, that I loved him. Things got out of hand…."
"Stop B! Please don't tell me he tried to rape you?" Faith screamed a guttural scream like a war cry.
Buffy pawed at Faith "stop, please Faith it's okay. I am not with him, I am staying away from him."
"That is not the point Buffy! They are animals why can't you get it through your head! You didn't see it with Angel now it's Spike! I love Angel but Buffy, he's a Vampire! I gotta go B I need some air."
With that Faith walked out of the room and left a crying Buffy.
As Faith made her way to the lobby she bumped into Angel and Cordelia.
"Hey Faith," Angel didn't look up…..Faith knew right away that Angel had overheard the conversation.
"You heard didn't you." He still did not look up…. "Look at me god damit," Angel heads sprang up. "I am right aren't I?"
"Yes Faith we, Spike and I are animals. Now can you get past that and understand what she is going through?"
"Hello can someone fill me in," said Cordelia.
"What didn't you hear it Cordelia?"
That was a thud…that was Buffy falling off the pedestal that Faith put her on.
"OH," was all Cordy said as she put her nose back in her paperwork.
Faith stuffed her hands in her pockets "…is everybody here to shrink me or what?"
Dorian sighed from the doorway.
"Looks like it Faith, we all care about you. Now what are you going to do about it? I don't know what Buffy said to you, can't hear like a vampire but I know it got you pretty shaken up, can you still love her, now that you know she is human just like you?"
"Wooo wait a minute, I told her I told her how I felt, she never said she felt anything for me."
"She does!" Buffy said from the top of the stairs.
Everyone looked up to see a very worn out Buffy sitting on the top step.
Faith slowly turned and started up the stairs, she sat down next to Buffy and took her hand.
"B, I am so sorry that that happened to you," she kissed the top of Buffy's hand. "Did you mean it? Do you have feelings for me?"
Buffy put her hand on Faith's cheek, "yes I do, I don't understand all of them but yes they are there, and I don't want to run anymore. I am so tired Faith, so very tired."
"Come on B," Faith picked up Buffy, loving the feel of the weight in her arms.
Faith pushed open the door to her room and gently placed Buffy on the bed. Buffy was crying softly, not really there, just kind of numb.
Faith removed her clothes and put on a tee shirt and boxers. She moved to Buffy to help her out of her clothes, she didn't put up a protest, she just moved with Faith's actions, she did struggle when Faith put her in an oversized tee and tucked her under the blankets. This wasn't about sex this was about taking care of Buffy, making sure she was safe, Faith knew that her omissions had cost her greatly.
Faith curled Buffy into her arms and kissed her on the forehead, for nearly an hour Faith whispered to Buffy, whispered into her ear. Faith told her she loved her and that things would be okay, she kissed her softly on the cheek, and rocked her until she could feel her breathing become steady with sleep.
Faith drifted off to sleep …..knowing that Buffy was safe, safe in her arms for now.
Buffy woke to the morning sun streaming in from Faith's bedroom window. At first she was a little disorientated, then she remembered the events of yesterday and her omissions to Faith about having feelings for her. Buffy trusted her "gut" feeling on most things and when she laid back down on the pillow she found a smile spread across her face, it was going to be okay all of it.
She suddenly remembered going to bed with Faith but where was she, Buffy started to panic what if during the night Faith thought about her and Spike and had changed her mind, oh god no!
"Faith!" she called out a little more urgent than she had meant it.
Faith came through the bedroom door with two cups of coffee; she put them down and quickly went to Buffy's side.
"What's wrong B? You okay?"
Faith scanned the room for something out of the ordinary but could find nothing, she didn't sense anything.
"Bad dreams B? It's okay I'm here," she pulled Buffy into a tight hug.
"Faith are you okay about last night?"
"Which part do you mean B? The you slept with Spike or the part of where you got feelings for me? I am okay with the you got feelings for me part, the Spike part, I am gonna stake him, I will make him pay for what he did to you."
"Faith please just let it go," she gently cupped Faith's cheek as she said this.
"B for you I will, for now, but given the chance I will put him down."
Buffy reached up and kissed Faith on the cheek, "thanks Baby."
*Did she just call me baby?*
"Umm B I brought you up coffee, here," Faith reached over and handed her a cup.
"You are a goddess Faith, thanks so much. I hope I wasn't too much trouble for you? I was so tired, I didn't want to think, feel anything."
"No, it was cool B, I hope you don't mind the sleeping arrangements? I didn't know what to do?"
"You did great Faith, especially the shirt……I didn't know you loved the powerpuff girls?" Buffy smirked as she reached over and pinched Faith on the cheek, causing Faith to blush.
"Ya, sure it was a gift okay."
For some reason this made Buffy frown a little, someone had given Faith this tee shirt, a nightshirt. She was sure it wasn't Cordy, and somehow she doubted Dorian even knew who they were.
"Hey, B what's with the sad face…..?"
"Nothing Faith I was just thinking, um who gave you the shirt…" she tried to ask this casually, but she knew she was giving herself away.
Faith could tell that Buffy was a little jealous….this was just too good to be true. *Now don't get your hopes up too high, she may just want to get one for Dawn.*
"Why B you want one?"
"No just wondering, um it's cute ya know in a supergirl sort of way, kind of like us…okay babbling." Buffy blushed as she tried to shut herself up.
"I don't know where Angel got it, I can ask him?" Faith snuggled up to Buffy's side, "I kinda like you wearing mine…..If that's okay with you?"
"Ya, it's okay with me Faith," Buffy leaned in and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
"Say, B what if I make you breakfast in bed…..what do you want, anything I will make you anything."
Buffy found herself giggling watching Faith, her hands were waving about showing Buffy how big the pancakes will be, piles of bacon, juice.
"I love you Faith."
Faith stopped mid-sentence, did she just hear what she thought she heard. No, can't be true.
"B did you just say that you loved me?"
"Yup I did."
Faith kneeled in front of Buffy's side of the bed, she took Buffy's hand and held it to her cheek. Tears rolled down her face as she tried to comprehend the last few seconds.
"What does that mean B? What does this mean for us?"
"I don't know Faith. I know I love you, I want to be with you. We need to start over, from the beginning, ya know like regular people do when they date. I want this to be something Faith, more than an affair. We don't have much time in our lives, we're slayers and the time I do have with you…well I want it all. I want the picket fence and the dog and the kids. I know you said you wanted to call the shots this time and I will respect your decision on this, but I never had a chance for a future either…..now, I feel like I do."
Buffy stopped and realized she had been babbling yet again, she hadn't give Faith time to respond to anything she had said.
"So Faith what do you think?"
"Umm…B, that's a lot I mean, we only just…..aw hell, I get to pick what kind of dog, cuz I know you …..I don't want some little yipper, that need to be brushed and bows in its hair."
Faith scooped Buffy up in her arms and held her tight, "whatever you say dear."
Faith kissed Buffy slow and sweet with a promise of love and hopefully a long future.
She put Buffy down after spinning her around a few times, they were laughing.
"B, seriously I want to do this right too, no screwing around just you and me. I got a lot of work to do with Dorian, but I want to be with you," she pulled both of Buffy's hands to her lips and kissed them…."will you wait for me B?"
Note: I have never written a love scene so be gentle please....eck!
Dorian sat tapping away at the keyboard on her laptop; she was impressed with the way Faith had handled Buffy.
"Hello, hey anyone here?"
Dorian came up front and discovered a blonde woman, kind of sad, and with a badge.
"Can I help you?" Dorian said.
"Yeah, I'm looking for Angel? I am Kate Lockey with L.A.P.D."
"Is there a problem Officer……"
"That's detective," Kate said rather abruptly.
"Sorry detective, but everyone is out," she stretched out her hand and said, "I am Dorian Grey, nice to meet you."
"Yeah like wise. Can you tell Angel I stopped by and I was looking for Faith?"
"Why are you looking for Faith, she has been here since she got out of prison."
"Oh, so she is here, can I see her?"
"No I am sorry, she's asleep, upstairs."
"What are you her mother?"
"No, and is it police business you need to see her about?"
"Nah, just wanted to see her," Kate folded her arms across her chest, "who are you, you a new member of Angel's team?"
"You know what Angel does here" Dorian said.
"Sure, do you? I mean sure you do, sorry," with that Kate slumped down into a chair.
"Detective can I get you a cup of coffee or maybe a beer?"
"A beer would be great; hey I'm sorry for being such a jerk."
"It's okay, have you worked with Angel before on cases?" Dorian said as she handed one to Kate.
"Ya, sometimes……our paths seem to cross. So are you the new member of Angel's little do-gooders?"
"No, I am here for Faith, have you heard of the watchers council, Vampire slayers?"
"I met one…..Feisty blonde, real attitude."
"That would be Buffy, yes she is a little feisty."
"So, what do you have to do with Faith and how did she get out of jail?"
"I was sent by the witch's council to take over Faith rehabilitation, and counseling."
"Why Faith, what's the big deal?"
"She's a slayer."
"I thought Buffy was the slayer?"
"She was, it's a long story…..Tell you what how about I buy you dinner and explain it all."
"Yeah, I could eat, thanks."
"Let me get my coat and we'll leave."
Faith held Buffy's hands waiting for an answer.
"Will ya B will ya wait for me?"
"So, you are staying here," Buffy said.
"Ya, for a while, I gotta get my shit together B. I know Dorian can help me, I trust her."
"Yes Faith I will wait for you."
"Oh B I can't believe it. I promise I will come to Sunnyd every chance I get. I am just really scared about going back there…what are they gonna say, Red and Xander?"
"Faith believe me things are not the same as they used to be…..no more stone throwing. We all hit bottom over the past few years, we all have done things we are not proud of."
"I hope I can make it up to them B?"
"I am not saying it's going to be easy Faith but we will get through it."
"When do you go back B?"
"Tomorrow….." She put her arms around Faith's neck and pulled her close.
"Don't pout B, you'll give me a big head….."
"I'll miss you Faith…..When do you think you can come out?"
"Don't know maybe a week or two?"
"Oh" was all Buffy said.
Faith felt like her heart would burst, man! She didn't want to screw this up.
"Hey B…look at me. It's gonna be okay, we will talk on the phone and I will work real hard with Dorian so I can get to you as soon as I can. Okay?"
"Faith just don't forget me…. Okay?"
"Not a chance B, two years in jail and I didn't forget you…..not gonna start now."
Faith saw Buffy flinch at the word jail….."hey B don't go there please… it's okay really."
"How could I Faith how could I send you away? They didn't know how to deal with a slayer…..!"
"B, ya did what you had to do, you couldn't let the council get me…I'd be dead by now."
With that said Buffy pulled Faith to the bed…."please don't say things like that Faith. I can't, I can't even think about that…what could have happened."
"Shh it's okay B, it's done it's over."
Faith reached for Buffy and they started to kiss, soft at first, then their passion burst forth. Buffy's tongue demanded entrance into Faith's mouth. A moan escaped Faith as Buffy tongue found her own.
They lay down on the bed wrapped up in each other, dueling for dominance each wanting to possess the other.
Faith reached down and pulled at the hem of Buffy's shirt……
"B…..I want to touch you, I want to feel all of you."
"Oh Faith god, I can't believe this…..I never, felt this."
Faith dipped down to nip at Buffy's neck and lick up to her ear lobe as she took it in her mouth and sucked.
"Oh God!"
Buffy sat up and pulled the tee shirt over her head, at the same time, Faith ripped off her nightshirt.
They both sat there shy, glancing back and forth wondering who should make the first move.
"Faith, I have never… um I have never been with a woman. I don't know what um to do."
"Hey, slow down…it's okay neither have I."
"Faith, stop I know you have….."
"No B not like this, not love, in love, making love. It's you…." the realization of it hit Faith….my god she had never made love….and this was Buffy her B.
Buffy watched the emotions play about Faith's face and soon realized they were in the same boat.
Buffy spread herself out on top of Faith…"don't worry baby, I think we can figure it out."
Their kisses deepened as a fine sheen of perspiration started to form on their bodies.
Faith started kissing under Buffy's chin while working her way down the valley between her breasts, "god B you are so beautiful….." Faith captured a nipple in her mouth she sucked on it, then grazed it with her teeth; Buffy let out a gasp at this action.
Faith spoke to Buffy with her lips on her nipple, her hand traveled to the other breast and rolled and tweaked the nipple between her fingertips.
"You like this don't you baby; you like the way I touch you?"
"Oh god yes Faith, oh god."
"Tell me what you want baby, tell me what feels good?"
"Faith, I can't," Buffy found it hard to make a sentence much less think….
Faith chucked to herself, god she loved this, her body was on fire and Buffy hadn't even touch her…..yet.
Faith's hand explored down Buffy's body until she found her wet and wanting, "oh god B you are wet. Is this all for me baby, you feel so good" as she slipped two fingers inside her.
"Oh Faith!"
She looked up at Buffy, this voice was deep and husky and her eyes were hooded and full of passion.
Buffy pulled Faith up to her mouth, she thrusted her tongue into Faith mouth as she ran her nails down Faith's back. Faith reached up and grabbed Buffy's hands by the wrist and placed them above her head.
"B, please let me touch you, let me have all of you," with that Buffy grabbed onto the bars on the back of the bed, she let Faith have her way, she trusted her.
Faith rocked her fingers in and out of Buffy, feeling the velvet soft inside, her head was swimming with the reality that she was here with Buffy, tears slipped down her cheeks.
Buffy's head was lolling from side to side, the pleasure was too much Faith was making her feel things she thought never existed, places on her body no man had ever reached.
She looked up at Faith hovering above her and saw the tears, "Baby what's wrong?"
"Nothing B…I love you is all….god I love you."
Faith started to close her eyes….."No baby open your eyes" Buffy said. "Look at me I want you to see, I want you to see me cum for you…what you do to me."
Faith looked into Buffy's eyes as she rocked her fingers in and out of her….."now baby cum for me now."
That pushed Buffy over the edge, she pushed up against Faith, never taking her eyes off of her. Buffy, pushed up hard and somehow flipped Faith over….Buffy was on top and looking down at Faith……..She collapsed down hard on Faith's chest.
Faith slowly slid her fingers out of Buffy only prolonging her orgasm.
"Oh god Faith, I can't believe it…you are so beautiful."
Faith reached up and pushed the hair out of Buffy's face "…no B you are."
Buffy kissed Faith deep and long, she was going to make Faith feel everything…know it was her touching her…. This was Faith first time making love…Buffy wanted it to be special.
Faith crys and whimpers, longing for Buffy to touch did not go unanswered…Buffy had made her way down, she kissed the inside of Faith's thighs, worshiping at the altar feeling alive for the first time in years. This was incredible; she dipped her tongue into Faith. Buffy sighed as she ran her tongue up and down, it amazed her when she touched Faith in a certain spot she would thrash on the bed….."Oh god B no more please…."
Buffy sucked on her clit, she held on, held on Faith's thighs she wanted more of her wanted to drink her in.
Faith entwined her fingers in Buffy's hair, urging her on, cooing to her, whisper words of encouragement.
"Oh yes B right there, please B, I love you."
Faith came hard, Buffy held her in her mouth slowing her movements wanting to draw out Faith's ecstasy……
Like a cat Buffy crawled up Faith's body and lay down gently on Faith.
"God B…..how did you know, the way you made me feel."
"Faith Baby you're crying again……."
"B come here baby it's all good I promise it's all good."
"I love you Faith."
"I promise B to love you forever…you are mine, my B."
Dinner was filled with quiet conversation mostly because of the subject material. The woman sitting before Dorian was not the same one that came brusquely through the door of the Hyperion earlier.
"Kate I'm sorry about your father that's very sad. I am sure if Angel could have gotten into the apartment ….would have helped."
"I know, I know, but it's been easier to hate Angel than to hate my father for leaving."
"I can understand that I hated Anna for a long while for leaving me….I even hated Faith for a bit there. It passes."
"Dorian have you been, umm dating anyone since Anna?"
"No, well kind of I've been out on dates but no one special. Kate are you asking me out?"
"Would you say yes if I did…??"
"Sure, it would be nice to see someone while I am here in L.A., thanks."
Kate felt her mood drop a little when she realized that Dorian was not staying in Los Angeles. *Okay, good Kate…typical lesbian are you going to rent a Uhaul after dinner.*
As Dorian studied Kate she could see a wash of emotions in her aura, she wanted to reach out and brush the pain away.
"So Kate what about you do you date often?"
"Nah, not really I live and breath my job…..It makes it hard for a social life."
"I know how that is, now that the coven and the property and all set things have gotten easier for me."
"Tell me more about this coven and all."
"Well, after the watcher council broke apart we decide that taking care and nurturing the slayers would be much better than sending them out to die. Faith has nothing, no family; she was willing to accept our help and guidance, Buffy now that will be another challenge. She has been on her own for so long and she has Mr. Giles and her friends, she is already taken care of."
Dorian felt herself becoming dizzy, not in a sick way but in an amusement park way, fun, happiness, love.
Kate reached for her hand it was obvious that something was wrong but Dorian was smiling.
"Hey Dorian….you okay?"
"Oh sorry….its just, wow."
"What's the matter what's going on?"
Dorian blushed….."I think our little lesbians have just consummated their relationship!"
"What," Kate was confused, "I don't understand?"
"The coven bound me to Faith; it's a protection spell, ritual more like it. I can feel very strong emotions with/from her……it is mostly for pain and danger, so I know when to go to her or try to protect her."
Dorian threw money on the table for the bill and stood up….."If you'll excuse …um, I need some air."
Kate watched Dorian head off towards the front door.
This night just keeps getting weirder and weirder Kate thought.
She found Dorian leaning against the wall in the alley….."Are you all right?"
Dorian grabbed Kate by the collar and pushed her up against the wall. Her face was only inches away from Kate's.
"Umm, Dorian not that I'm complaining but what the hell….." Kate was silenced but Dorian's mouth coming down on hers. Kate moaned as their tongues met.
Dorian was chastising herself for this behavior but the wave of emotions she felt was too much. Kate's mouth was warm and soft, she hadn't expected this, she didn't expect to really enjoy it this much.
Dorian pulled away from Kate and looked at her ….."Sorry Kate I um just something just came over me."
"Oh, so you didn't mean it, you really didn't mean to kiss me."
"That's not what I said um I didn't mean it….it's just I felt what they, Faith must be feeling and…." It was Kate's turn to pull Dorian close, "shh it's okay, I liked it." Kate pushed the unruly strand of red hair behind Dorian's ear….."If you do it again I'll know you mean it this time."
Dorian kissed Kate slowly this time taking her time exploring the soft pink lips, wondering how someone that acts this tough, could be this soft.
Faith sat bolt right in bed……Oh my god what the hell was that?
A sleepy Buffy sat up moments after Faith, "what's wrong," she pushed the damp hair off of Faith forehead, "Bad dream?"
"Nah….like a wet dream B….not a dream a feeling!"
"Are you okay?"
"Sure B……" they snuggled back down into the blankets. Faith traced lazy patterns on Buffy's stomach….."Um B, you up?"
"Cuz I am!"
"I don't want you to leave……"
"I don't want to go either but I have to, when do you think you'll come to Sunnydale?"
"B, as soon as I can…ya know I get an allowance now right? Cool, witches!"
"Faith please be careful, you know how the watchers council was…..I just don't want to see anything happen to you."
"I think I can trust Dorian B, I really do."
"Are you going to ask her what that whole feeling thing is about?"
"Oh ya, as soon as I see her, B. Come on lets go down stairs and say goodbye, unless you just want to run away with me?"
"Oh Faith don't temp me!!"
Dorian sat with her head in her hands, Kate, Kate ,Kate. Don't start something you can't finish Dorian, she said to herself.
"Hey Doc, we need to talk!"
"Faith, Buffy, good morning. So Buffy,…. heading back today?"
"Yup all packed and ready to go. Faith do you mind if I talk to Dorian alone for a few minutes?"
"Sure B," Faith bent down and kissed Buffy lightly on the lips.
"So, Buffy is this where you warn me about hurting Faith?"
"Yup, this is it."
"I could say the same to you Buffy…..when it comes to you ….Faith is a lemming looking for a cliff."
"Nice Dorian very nice……are we going to be friends or enemies?"
"Buffy, I am sorry, I had a tough night ….I apologize. Yes, we are going to be friends, Faith means the world to me. Buffy I need to explain something to you about Faith and I."
"Does this have anything to do with Faith jumping out of bed last night because she had some kind of feeling about you?"
"She felt it also…oh boy? I felt the both of you…she loves you very much Buffy, do you know that?"
"Ya, I love her too Dorian, very much."
"I am glad Buffy I really am. Buffy the coven bonded me to Faith, to her soul in a way. We found that with watchers they didn't sympathize with their charges enough. We wanted the new witch watchers to go through the same struggles that the slayers go through, to make them part of it. Does that make sense?"
"Sure …kind of like Giles."
"Exactly, that's where we got the idea from, he loves you like a father. So we created a ritual to implant in my case a maternal bond with Faith. It needs to be tweaked a little; I don't want to intrude on her love life, that was too much."
"But then why did she feel something back from you?"
"Um…I had a date last night, with Kate."
"Oh….detective Kate, blonde attitude, hates vampires way too much?"
"Yup that's the Kate."
"Watch that one Dorian…..She has been through a lot from what I gather."
"Thanks Buffy I will, she reminds me a lot of Faith, the attitude and all."
"Can I come in now?" Faith said sticking her head in the kitchen.
"Sure baby, come here" Buffy said with a smile on her face.
Buffy stood up to let Faith sit in the chair and she placed herself in Faith's lap.
"So, did you find out what's the what on the wet dream B?"
"Yup, I will give you the Faith version…. Witches council wants to feel what you feel so they made Dorian your soul Mommy. They didn't plan or her feeling us last night so they have to tweak it a little."
"Cool…. Creepy but cool, B. Doc, so you are like a Mom to me…a witch Mom? Are you even old enough to be my Mom?" Faith smirked.
"Yes, Faith I am old enough."
"Are you okay with all of this baby?" Buffy snuggled deeper into Faith trying to gage her reaction.
"Sure, ya know I never really had a Mom, don't really know what I am supposed to do, but it's okay I guess?"
Faith I am not your Mom, they just gave me a maternal feeling to you kind of what animals have for their young…. protection instincts."
"It's okay Doc, it just sucks that someone had to have a spell to be or feel like a Mom to me."
Faith felt Buffy pull her in closer and Faith hugged her back.
"Faith it's not like that, I asked for this. I wanted to come here and be with you. Don't you understand you are all I have left of her … of Anna? It's the last thing I promised her when she left to be your watcher… that if anything happened …..I would take care of you. I wouldn't let you die like all the other slayers." Dorian saw Buffy stiffen for a few seconds then relax back into Faith.
"Anna thought of you as a daughter…I wrote the spell Faith, I made it for us, for you and I. We both need this."
Faith was crying by this time, all she had ever hoped for was happening, the only bad part was that Buffy was going back to the hellmouth.
"Listen I will let you two say goodbye properly…..I am ready to take you to the airport Buffy."
"Airport, I have a bus ticket….."
"Not anymore, I bought you a plane ticket, actually I bought you two tickets, one for now and one for two weeks so you can comeback to see Faith."
Faith stood up spinning Buffy around with her.
"Thanks Mia, ( it was as close to Mom that Faith could get)" Faith said as she hugged Dorian.
Dorain kissed Faith on the top of the head, "can't have your girlfriend all tired when she goes back, can we?"
"Thanks Dorian," Buffy said.
"Buffy I want you to think about letting the council help you too. I understand your history with the old council….take your time, we can talk again in a few weeks."
Buffy hugged Dorian …."umm thanks."
"Well let me know when you are ready to leave" with that Dorian left them alone.
"Wow can you believe it B?"
"I am so happy for you Faith you deserve it, I love you."
"I love you too B."
"Hey, I have a present for you….I have been holding it for a long time…like two years." Faith reached into her pocket and pulled out a little bundle.
"Here…she thrust it at Buffy, you don't have to wear it or anything, It's just …well it got me through a lot tough times in prison and stuff. I never thought I would get to give it to you."
Buffy pulled the tissue apart gently and found a silver chain, with two charms attached to it. One was a small cross and the other was the letter B.
Faith walked up to Buffy and took her hands, "see B it's a little letter B. You are my B, see?"
Buffy was crying as Faith put it around her neck and clasped it.
"I love it Faith thank you so much!"
"Well it's time to go…."
"Ya…I will see you in two weeks right?"
"Yup and I miss you already baby!"
"Let's go."
...continued in The Witch's Council...